this is zahidah

2012-01-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

have you ever cried out of fear or Allah?

have you ever cried because of Allah's mercy?

have you ever cried because you felt alone but knew only Allah could hear you?

have you cried for the blessing that is Islam?

be thankful and show gratitude to Allah by following the footstep of our beloved prophet and repenting to HIM. No one knows when they will die.

2012-01-08T01:19:00.000+08:00

...

as i walked

i saw you, from far

and i accidently stopped myself

my heart was waving at you

wished you could see me here

but i'm glad that you are in a good health

and enjoy you day with your friends

and so i started to walk again

saying to my heart,

"it's okay. one day he will be yours and be with you always"

close your eyes and believe in Allah :')

insyaAllah. :)

For her own and others to wonder.

2011-12-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

good day today!. because it's jumaat. hehe been through a lot this week. Alhamdullilah i manage to make it clearer to myself.

Alhamdulillah.

small piece advice from me, whenever you feel uncomfortable, close your eyes, say to yourself, whenever you feel lonely and no one would understand you, remember! that Allah has sent people away so that it's between you and HIM ;)

may He always guide me, give me strength in this path, because He knows me well none like others. haih, i love HIM. weee :))

ohhh! today is 30th december. which meanss, there is only one day left to greet 2012. yeay! hurm, i wonder, what 2012 is going to bring me on. macam tak sabar, takut pun ada. huhu. because we never know. but He does. but whatever it is, everything happens must be for reasons and for the best of us. trust HIM, yeay! :)

it's true and well said when sometimes we THINK we can't bear something. including myself. haihh. but don't we trust Allah? because He will never ever give something that we can't bear. just pray that may He provides you strength to face it. insyaAllah.

lots of things I need to change in myself. huhuhu. banyakkk sangat nak kejar. main-main lagi. lalai lagi. academic, and most important is life as a muslim. ya Allah. sempatkah, sempatkah, sempatkah. :(

what did I do in past 20 years? is it more to good deed or more to sinful mattera? if it is more to good deed, is Allah accept my amal, ibadat and each and every good deed i've done? if it is to more sinful matter, could He forgive me and can I cover it back starting now?. you never know when will be your last breath. ya Allah ;'( tak takut ke korang semua? huhuhuk semoga Allah mantapkan iman kita dan tetapkan iman yang telah ada dalam hati kita. amiiin.

friend in need is a friend indeed!. yeap, but Islam make it clearer that;

"friends on that day will be foes, one to another-except for Righteous''[Quran,43:67]

ah-hah! this is what is called kawan sampai ke Jannah. alhamdulillah. i have been with friends that make it clearer for myself to be a better muslim and a better(plus cuter) daughter directly and indirectly. :) semoga Allah kurniakan limpah Rahmat dan menjauhkan kalian semua dari azab api neraka. aminnn Ya Rabb ! insyaAllah ya ukhti sekalian. ukhuwah fillah abadan abada. hehe macam arabian sudah, so not me, tak biasa laaa. ngaaa-p! :p but don't take serious on who said it. take the words :)

and one more one more! i found this :

''sahabat yang baik, apabila memandang wajahnya, membawa kepada mengingati Allah, mendengarkan kata-katanya menambahkan ilmu, terlihat gerak gerinya meninggikan takutnya kepada Allah, berkawan dengannya berjuang ke jalan Allah''.

haa! korang la tu! serius! :)

walaupun cara berlainan antara setiap orang, tapi percaya lah, korang dah banyak sangat ketuk kepala eden, eh salah! ketuk hati batu chek ni. alhamdulillah. :) pahala pahala pahala. doakan saya menjadi seorang anak comel yang lebih baik dari sebelum ini dan ditetapkan iman di dalam hati ini. insyaAllah. amiinn.

MAK! nak kahwin boleh? *takpe, mak den tak baca blog. KOT* :p pastu mesti mak cakap, graduate tak habis lagi nak berangan nak kawen! kerja pun taklagi ni. ''nanti lepas grad kerja laaaaa'' duit ade? ''tak ada.tapi pas kerja dapat la duit! takde hal lah''. iman dah cukup? ilmu agama dah banyak? akhlak dah perfect? ''uhmmm'' pastu? ''eheh!'' (buat muka cute, aku memang comel pun:p) tapi tapi tapiiii tak salah kannn? ada budak yang kawen awal umur 19. banyak sangatttt dah baca orang duk share kat facebook, kat blog apetah lagi, kat islamic forum paling popular skrg ni, iaitu kawen awal. khitbah. nak tahu ape benda, dah pernah cakap la pasal ni kat SINI < click!

aishhh nak juga nak juga nak juga! uhmmmm. :( tapi bila banyak kaji pasal benda ni *benda lain kau taknak kaji ye zahidah oii*, ada sebabnya Allah permudahkan urusan mereka yang nak kawen awal. lepastu saya kaji characteristic mereka yang khitbah ni *stalker!*, lifestyle merea, sebab-sebab mereka kawen dan saya terjumpa satu conclusion!.

"semuanya berbalik kepada Allah s.w.t. ada sebabnya Allah susahkan permintaan saya itu. orang yang beruntung tu mungkin dah cukup iman serta amalnya. maka, Allah percaya dia mampu untuk menjalani kehidupan sebagai isteri/suami walaupun masing-masing tak menjalani kehidupan suami-isteri yang sebenar. walaupun tanggungan masih bawah ibu bapa, tapi kena tengok niat. nikah bukan hanya nak cukupkan syarat supaya 'halal' semata-mata and nak puaskan nafsu semata-mata, tapi kena tengok niat! Allah yang tahu apa niat sebenar anda. lepastu, kalau tak cukup ilmu agama, tak cukup apa yang perlu dicukupkan. cukup-cukupkan lah dulu. habistu, macam mana kalau dah ada calon yang betul-betul kita confident dia paling best untuk jadi husband? hmmm. macam dalam gambar di atas, belum lagi masanya, jauhkan apa yang telah dirapatkan, rapatkan apa yang telah dijauhkan esp with Allah, family, friends. pesanan utk diri sendiri. jangan berangan kalau nak ada hubungan dengan Alien (bukan nama sebenar) kalau hubungan dengan DIA yang ciptakan Alien tu pun tak jaga. macam kata peribahasa ya anak-anak, jangan jadi seperti kacang lupakan kulit. jadiiii conclude sentencenye disini, kalau nak kawin cepat, grab as many knowledges about Islam as you can and perbaiki iman, iman dan iman,akhlak diikuti akidah, insyaAllah sampailah seru nanti. HE knows best. jodoh ajal di tangan Allah. TRUST TRUST TRUST :) ''

my opinion. my own advices to myself. as sobru minal imaannn. moga dipermudahkan, insyaAllah.

okay! iman iman juga, study jangan lupa. yes! go biotechnologist! u're what Malaysian waiting for! "yeke?" haha. lately baca buku sejarah, hubungan etnik. Melayu-ian ni manyaaaak untung kat negara sendiri, tapi kurang nilai kesyukuran dan nilai nak success kat negara sendiri. sebab apa? sebab confident akan dapat kerja, yela, Perlembagaan tertulis tolong nak rapatkan jurang beza ekonomi dan pendidikan Melayu dengan etnik lain akibat dasar pecah perintah zaman British colonisation, tapi Melayu sendiri taknak tolong diri sendiri, haiihh susahlah. so readers (kalau ada), pray for my best! doakan saya boleh jawab exam dengan happy-go-lucky ye! yang penting, doakan saya faham dan ingat semua ilmu-ilmu yang saya belajar. sebab itu lagi penting dari exam.

no no noouuu, i don't tend to study just to pass the test and forget it. that is sooo not me. walaupun hakikatnya macam tu, but we need to change dear students! wake up from the bed! finished up your blog writing and start reading zahidah! ''heh''

"give our time, give our wealth,

give our love, give ourselves

knowing Allah sees each and every hidden deed"

Dawud Wharnsby - Give A Little

so, till here. :)

salam.

p/s : all pictures taken from tumblr.

fall in love with his inspiring songsss :)

2011-12-30T02:27:00.000+08:00

Dawud Wharnsby-crazy spots i've prayed.

*lama lama jadi tempat share lagu je la blog aku ni. malas nak update plus hibernating mode, final is jusssst around the corner. pray for my best! insyAllah :)

what did i do today?

2011-12-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

Did I turn to you
And did I obey?
Oh Allah, tell me, what did I do today?
Did I use my time?
Did I use my mind?
If I search my heart what will I find?
The light of your guidance is a glimmering ray,
Tell me, what did I do toady?
Oh Allah, tell me, what did I do today?

may He show me the way to keep calm and cool.

2011-12-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

*ain'tnostrongenoughtokeepwaiting*
hmmmm.

2011-12-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

"ada sebabnya Allah susahkan permintaan saya itu.

semua pun tahu, manusia buat perancangan. tapi Allah lah sebaik-baik perancangan dan menentukan apa yang terbaik. semoga Allah berikan petunjuk dan hikmah kepada saya disebalik perkara ini. sedih dan kecewa tapi siapalah saya nak merungut. sudahlah meminta nak merungut lagi. Ya Allah!. ampunkanlah dosakuuu. berikanlah aku petunjukmu. terangkan mataku daripada pandangan kabur syaitan. tunjuklah apa yang sukar di terangkan oleh insan2 di muka bumi ini. tetapkanlah dalam hati ku untuk mengejar cintaMu lebih dari cinta manusia yang tidak kekal. tetapkanlah juga di dalam hati manusia-manusia yang aku cintai untuk mengejar cintaMu lebih dari insan-insan di muka bumi ini. dan jadikanlah manusia-manusia yang aku cintai adalah penemanku di alam Akhirat nanti, hanya dengan izinmu Ya Allah. jadikanlah bakal suamiku di dunia ini juga suamiku di Syurga, jadikanlah ibu bapa ku sebagai pembimbingku di Syurga, jadikanlah ahli-ahli keluargaku sebagai seri hidupku di Syurga juga nanti sebagaimana mereka menyerikan hidupku di sini. bimbinglah kami mencari redha dan rahmatmu Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku yang Maha Mendengar rintihanku dan Maha Menentukan Segalanya. ameeenn Ya Rabb"

2011-12-19T02:33:00.000+08:00

short and random

2011-12-08T03:00:00.000+08:00

#1
being a biotech student, everyday when my sight saw a tree, i will imagine how does photosynthesis process is done and why does the leaves gave it colour green. when my eyes saw a river or even drain, I'll imagine how uncountable microbes is in there and their aerobic process in the water. when i saw a bump or small wound on my hands, It remind me with the natural blood clotting applied on the open wound. and recently, whenever I want to wash my clothes, I'll see the 'ingredients' of the detergent to see what types of enzymes present in it. well, Allah is Great. :) but is that normal to have those kind of imagination everywhere I go? -.- geee

#2
yes, most people would agree that men always need an appreciation, women usually need more attentions. so, does it mean I don't deserve at least an appreciation from a guy? well, I have egos too.

#3
Glad to have friends that put trust on me to tell their challenges in life. Be grateful because you can see what you are facing and trying to find the best solution to solve it. Be grateful because you are strong enough to speak it out and hear it with your own ears of your problems, i just wish that i could be as strong as you, friend. . .

#4
i hate when i have to choose all the best options in my life. i don't like it when i have those limiting factors in my life. i am seriously sick whenever i felt like I'm falling down and losing faith. but still, i believe in Him, the Only One that i trust the most. i just need to put more trust on HIM. :)

#5
being a leader ain't no easy. your feelings, emotions get distracted sometimes though it is just a simple matter. people may say that you are being too emo on a simple thing, but do they know how hard it is to get rid of those emo feelings? do they know how hard to put smile and just forget it? yes it seems simple on them, not when I put them in my shoes. still, I have no regret on it. learned lots of things everyday alhamdulillah :)

#6
..... worried :/
Allah knows best . .

husnuzon

2011-11-30T21:41:00.000+08:00

"Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."

[Surah Al-Baqarah, 2: 216]

everyone's wish.

2011-11-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta,

jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak

melebihi cintaku pada-Mu,

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati,

izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang

yang hatinya tertaut pada-MU,

agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta sia-sia

insyaAllah.

ps; copied from facebook.

May Allah guide us, show us the straight path, and He will always be in our heart. amin.

# Wordless Wednesday 8 : love that can never be replaced. hehee

2011-11-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

it must be love :)

2011-10-29T18:10:00.001+08:00

*replying through my heart*

tapi macam mana nak tahu dah delivered belum?

teeeheee :D

silent supporter. ;D

2011-10-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

besok final Piala FA. Negeri Sembilan vs Terengganu. tetiba rasa macam teringin nak tengok bola. sebelum ni kutuk kemain orang yang tengok bola sebab tak paham kenapa diorang excited tengok bola tu bergolek-golek :P. but now i think i know whyyy. since i watched rugby game last few weeks. and it was, -.-' , kenapa teruk sangat main. sampai kelopak mata terkoyak, kena buat pembedahan ankle after the game. err, is THAT normal? come on, bola rugby je pun. berebut-rebut macam budak-budak kecik. hehehee no offense to any rugby player who read this ;) so what makes me realised is that, watching sport live is very enthusiasing. serious best, no doubt. :) and you witness everything with your two eyes. its true that you can get updated with the news, facebook, or even your friend's mouth, but it is just different. you are too little too late. ketinggalan keretapi. huhu. and though now akan ada live streaming kat TV, but it is not just the same. the sound of crazy people shouting for 'hobin jang hobin!' or 'gomo kelate gomo!' (tu je slogan yang aku ingat:p) you can't get the excitedness infront of your TV, right? :) i don't have the opportunity to be in a stadium to watch football live, but i am not sure is it suitable for a person like me to be there. again, no offense to any girl who went to stadium to watch football. it depends on how you behave and with whom you are with kan. :) and i haven't heard that perempuan tak boleh pergi stadium tengok bola. kalau salah betulkan yee. :)

last few weeks jugak, i witnessed olahraga interkolej at Pusat Sukan UPM. and suddenly i reminiscence back my past where i used to participate olahraga, lompat jauh, lompat kijang and also, netball during my school days. huhuu. sayangnya bila dah tak active lagi. T.T teringin nak dapat medal and diri atas box 1,2,3 tu. now it's hardly for me to get involve in sports anymore due to my time management. nak nak lagi tahun depan dah jadi final year student. T.T cepatnya masa berlalu.

this was taken when me and sisters want to buy some popia at STAR,paroi. we didn't knew there were a game that night. hehehee. but i knew Piala Malaysia is going on okay. :D

and last but not least, lets pray together that Negeri Sembilan win for Piala Malaysia this time and none of kecelakaan will happen, insyaAllah. aminn! <3

hobin jang hobin!!!

assalamualaikum.

2011-10-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

hihiii tetiba nak post gambar ni. rindu pulak :D

and this is not a love story.

2011-10-21T12:26:00.000+08:00

''Your friend is the person who knows all about you, and still like you''

sorry. things change without us noticing it. it seems that you can't accept the way i am but keep asking the questions that you know already the answer. maybe because we are not wearing the same color of shoes anymore :'( your's way better than mine.

since then, i can feel the boundary between us. you are busy with your life where everybody needs and favors you and me, an ordinary girl next door. i just don't feel the same. and it will never be again. i don't think so. sedih :( maybe this is what you wished for. an answer to your question 'cuba jadi matang sikit..?'. fine.
and this is it.

and stop pretend saying that i am important than others. entah, it is just sick when to know that everybody is actually important for you.

''Friends never make assumptions about you. They never expect a reason to go out with you. In fact friends only expect you to be you''

assalamualaikum.

2011-10-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

aduhaii durian.

luar tajam bau mengancam.

nak buka susah nak habis senang.

luarnya hijau dalam nak kuning

kan best kalau berbiji-biji gugur boleh share dengan semua floormates. ni sebijik je jumpa maka tak cukup la since hantu-hantu durian semua dah kebas. hahaha.

apapun, durian saya tetap tak suka.

sekian.

assalamualaikum. :D

mimpi

2011-10-13T18:35:00.000+08:00

........................................................................................................................................

taktahu macam mana, tetiba je aku dah terpacak depan satu pintu depan bilik dalam rumah. bila dah depan pintu tu, aku tengok sekeliling mana semua orang niii. aku jenguk dalam bilik.. ''ada orang dalam bilik la''. orang tu tengah solat. aku masih terpacak di sisi pintu merenung dari jauh takmahu mengganggu. orang tu membelakangi aku menghadap kiblat. ''eh....tu macammm...'' aku masih terpacak depan tu dan berfikir dan terus berfikir siapakah orang tu. seperti pernah aku lihat. keadaan dia solat..... aku confident itu orang yang aku fikirkan. ''YaAllah betul ke orang yang aku fikirkan ni? aku dah lama tak jumpaaaa''. excited ada nervous pun ada. tak ada orang lain yang pernah solat dalam keadaan macam tu dalam rumah ni.

and out of sudden muncul seseorang kat sebelah aku. tak tahu kenapa aku tak tengok muka orang tu. dan kami sama-sama pandang keadaan orang yang tengah solat tu. tangan "Allahuakbar" dapat kami lihat. dan tetiba orang kat sebelah aku mengeluarkan kata-kata. aku toleh dan terkejut sebab orang yang berada di sebelah aku tu adalah orang yang sama. dalam keadaan yang membisik, aku dapat rasakan bisikan tu tepat kena gegendang telinga aku sampai terjaga pun aku dapat rasa macam ada orang bisik kat aku. maka dia mulakan pertanyaan tanpa sempat aku mengeluarkan jawapan. dengan suara yang sangat lembut dan sayup seperti pernah aku dengar, dia mulakan pertanyaan........

''adah, kenapa tak solatkan untuk nenek?''

''kenapa tak doakan nenek?''

''adah dah lupakan nenek...''

''kenapa tak solatkan untuk nenek?''

''kenapa tak doakan untuk nenek?''

........

terussss aku terjaga. dari membaring cepat-cepat bersila atas katil. itu refleksi aku bila aku tidur bangun terkejut. terkedu kejap. speechless orang putih kata. aku termenung.. ''tu nenek aku...'' orang yang solat dalam keadaan duduk atas wheelchair dan badan membongkok sedikit menghadap kiblat. dan orang yang sama jugak berdiri sebelah aku berbaju kurung putih yang suci.

beberapa saat lepas tu, dalam keadaan bersila mulalah adegan cenggeng aku. bagaikan air terjun sungai gabai yang sejuk, air terjun semulajadi mataku mula menyejukkan pipi aku yang comel ni. teresak-esak bagaikan baby yang baru lahir.

dalam keadaan refleks diri, terus aku menadah tangan membacakan Al-fatihah. kawan aku kata kalau kita nak doa kita 'sampai' kepada orang tu, kita baca sambil ingat muka dia. at the same time, kita sedang memikirkan tentang orang tu lah. maka, sekali lagi, aku cool down sikit, dengan menutup mata dahi berkerut menggunakan memori otak aku, aku ingat balik muka nenek aku. :'( berkali-kali sampai aku tenang sikit.

aku tengok jam pukul berapa. 7.55am. after subuh, aku study nak test hari tu and before aku baring lepas study, jam waktu tu pukul 7.30am. so aku bajet aku tertidur dalam 7.45am macam tu la. kejap je aku tidur rupanya. rasa macam lama sangat.

.....................................................................................................................................

aku tak expect pun aku akan mimpi macam ni. aku fikir nak test je. huhu. aku rasa banyak soalan yang ditanya tapi ni je yang terpahat dalam ingatan aku. :"( jarang aku mimpi macam ni. selalu mimpi bangun nangis sebab terkejut terserempak hantu, terjatuh banggunan ke camtu je. and kalau mimpi pasal nenek aku, aku mimpi flashback je.

mimpi. bukan semuanya indah. ada orang kata itu hanya permainan tidur. ada pula yang kata itu adalah satu petanda. dan ada juga yang kata mimpi itu menandakan kita diperlukan oleh orang yang dimimpi dalam mimpi kita. tapi apa semua di sebalik tu, Allah sahaja yang tahu. wallahualam.

hargai setiap perkara dan rezeki yang telah diberikan kepada kita. tak semua yang manis tak semua yang pahit. dan semua itu milik Allah. bila-bila masa je dia boleh tarik balik.

and me for once, i'm so grateful with what i have now. Alhamdulillah.

CINTA ALLAH SAHAJA CINTA YANG ABADI.

AL-FATIHAH

Hajjah Ramlah binti Bibah

fakta :

#1 : seb baik roomate aku tak ada time tu, mesti dia nampak pelik je kalau dia ada.

#2 : setiap kali sorang-sorang aku tengok gambar arwah nenek kat page family, aku mesti cenggeng :'(

#3 : milo suam cicah roti dan renungan penuh makna. kenangan terakhir aku dengan Arwah Nenek. :'(

#4 : serius aku rinduu ... ;"((((((

#5 : waktu jawab test haritu, aku tetiba terfikir, terus nak cenggeng gak. cepat2 aku breathe in breathe out cool down and focus back.

2011-10-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

<3 <3
(:

nobody's perfect

2011-09-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

if you think that you don't deserve to have someone like her, than it's not her problem. it's your problem. you can't expect to have everyone that can fix in your head. you don't always have the chance to choose in your life. it's a matter of acceptance in each differences. you are assuming that differences burden you. but you are totally wrong. or in other words, you think you are too perfect that she is totally a bad person. bear in mind that each and every person in this world are born to be the best out of the best. if HE believe that she is the best, then who are you to say not? everyone knows that everybody is not perfect. and yes, ego can kill your talent. lets change for better person. :)

and don't talk bad about others.

P/s : don't simply judge people. a reminder for me too.

:)

2011-09-24T15:48:00.002+08:00

yeahh, i wish i have a chance to meet your's tooooooooo. ;)

tak semestinya

2011-09-23T11:58:00.000+08:00

it doesn't mean that you are bigger in size, you will win in every fight.

it doesn't mean that you are higher in age, you deserve to conquer everything.

it doesn't mean you have been given a chance, you can do whatever you want.

it doesn't mean when you are handsome, you can hurt any women you wish.

it doesn't mean when you think you are the smartest, you are always right.

it doesn't mean when you have the power, you can change everything you have planned.

it doesn't mean when you are the minority, you don't have the right to give some brilliant idea.

it doesn't mean if you said you are a secret keeper, you will keep secret forever.

because it's not you who decide the outcome for future. don't judge anything for common thing you have seen.

because it could change for HIS matter. reminding myself that only GOD let things happen if HE want it to be happen.

after all, we always pray for the best for the rest of our lives

i love you Allah :)

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

2011-09-15T19:28:00.002+08:00

ada macam kakak dengan adik tak? :P

hahaha

2011-09-15T12:30:00.000+08:00

......

2011-09-12T18:44:00.000+08:00

"akakk, akakk ni Tahun berapa eh?''

"Tahun Kedua. kenapaa??"

"oh yekee. takdee, akak ni nampak macam budak sekolah, nampak tak matured pun muka''

''kenapa, comel kan? biasalah. hahaha''

*terus aku blahh.* (-.-')

hati aku sedang berbicara.

2011-09-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

duluu, jujur aku cakap akulah orang yang mengutuk, memarahi dan memprotes. sekarang bila dah menjadi pemerhati, baru memahami situasi. harap ada jugak orang macam aku. bukan melihat hanya pada sebelah mata tetapi berfikir dan terus mendalami sehingga berada di dalam situasi yang sama dengan apa yang cuba diisi demi kebaikan. bukan untuk menunjukkan kekuasaan tetapi kekuatan dan keyakinan yang kurang di dalam hati. hati-hati ini, masih tertinggal dan ia perlu didekatkan kembali bersama jasadnya dengan pendekatan yang positif dan pengadaptasian yang baru. tak banyak aku minta, cuma sokongan dan bantuan jika perlu daripada hati-hati yang lebih matang, dan mungkin lebih matang dari hati aku.

takut aku fikirkan tentang bagaimana aku mahu menyatukan hati-hati yang baru mengadaptasikan situasi dan berkerut juga aku renungkan bagaimana aku mahu menyatukan pelbagai kategori hati-hati yang telahpun berada di dalam situasi ini. memang aku percaya, rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. namun, bagaimana aku mahu merapatkan jurang perbezaan antara hati-hati ini serapat-rapatnya dan juga seketat-ketat yang mungkin. jujur juga aku katakan, terdapat hati-hati ini yang jauh lebih baik dan bersih dari hatiku ini. satu saja aku reflekskan, itu rezeki aku Allah berikan untuk aku berfikir kembali tentang apa yang telah berlaku dengan segala tohmahan, kemarahan, dan keprotesan yang telah aku buat dulu. orang kata itu karma. aku kata Allah Maha Besar. dan inilah dia.

inilah peluang aku untuk memahami situasi dengan lebih mendalam. ini juga kemungkinan peluang terakhir aku untuk memahami. jadi, aku mahukan hati-hati ini baik yang matang, yang lebih matang dari hati aku dan juga hati-hati yang baru ini bukan sahaja untuk memahami tetapi menyampaikan dengan cara yang lebih baik dari cara yang aku sampaikan melalui peluang yang Allah berikan ini. peluang ini, bukan untuk kebaikan aku, tetapi kebaikan hati-hati yang bakal meneruskan perjalanan kehidupan di dalam situasi. sekali lagi aku minta, bukan sekadar mahu hati-hati itu membaca, tetapi memberikan sokongan dan bantuan sekiranya aku memerlukan hati-hati ini. kerana aku percaya, sekiranya hati-hati ini termasuklah hati aku memberikan bantuan dan sokongan, aku percaya, perbezaan hati-hati kita bukanlah sesuatu yang membebankan tetapi ianya adalah kekuatan. maka setiap perkara didalam situasi bakal diselesaikan dengan mudah. itu saja aku minta dari hati-hati ini. adakah hati-hati ini mendengar rintihan dan kerisauan hati aku ini?
harapnya begitulah...... <3

salam saya yang memohon kekuatan,

assalamualaikum :)

2011-09-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

"Aku terima nikahnya si dia binti si ayah dia dengan mas
kahwinnya RM.."

Bunyi macam senang? Nah ini ertinya :)

"Aku tanggung dosa² si dia dari ibu bapanya, apa saja dosa
yang dibuat, dari dedah aurat hingga ke tinggalnya solat dan
aku tanggung semua dosa bakal anak-anak aku. Kalau gagal,
maka aku fasik, dayus dan aku rela masuk neraka, aku rela
malaikat Zabaniyah melibas aku hingga pecah badanku."

ps : copy paste dari facebook je. nak update still tak ada mood. teheee :D

#7 Wordless Wednesday: incredible sulk. hm!

2011-08-17T02:58:00.001+08:00

#6 Wordless Wednesday : DND me. not in a good mood.

2011-08-17T02:24:00.000+08:00

2011-08-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

...and how's yours?

2011-07-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

''I know what love is. When you find the person you are supposed to love, bells ring and fireworks go off in your head and you can't find words to speak and you think about her all the time. When you find the person you are supposed to love, you will know by staring deeply into her eyes.''

-Jacob, an Asperger's in House Rules written by Jodi Picoult

#5 Wordless wednesday : what's your flavor? :)

2011-07-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

adat atau agama?

2011-07-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

dah pernah baca dah pasal benda ni. dulu lagi dah pernah baca. kalau tengok tarikh benda tu disubmit pun tahun lepas. so, dah lama lah kiranya. tapi orang kata, fakta tetap fakta. kalau fakta memang tidak akan berubah melainkan auta.

But i am wondering is that thing a realistic for nowadays? if yes, than why people did not practice it as a common culture in here? maybe we are not that open-minded for this. But yet, we know that somehow it is a good practice to curb or get far far away from all of the negativeness. or maybe we just don't believe our own capabilities and trust in ourselves. or maybe we are confuse to put which to put as our first priority nevertheless we had already knew because it is a common sense. and maybe we don't be that sensitive to think and to wonder for something like this. doesn't matter who you are, either a parent, a child, a sister, a brother, a neighbor, a friend or whatever your title are, you somehow need to think about this. something that people care less. and me, for once, .... i don't know what to say more. only He knows.

and what if the answer is no, then another simple question to ask, why not? since we can see literally that it brings more benefits especially for someone that they have found something they wished for but there are some circumstances that make them to hold on.

islam kan mudah. Manusia yang memberatkan sesuatu perkara yang tak perlu diberatkan. budaya itu lebih memberatkan.

Honestly, i haven't seen someone like a friend or a relative or a neighbor or whoever i knew that have done something like this. and that is why i am asking, is this for real? and what if, i said, what if, what if i wanna make this happen for the sake of Him? and another questions came up in my mind, am i ready like seriously ready mentally? and of what people will say? and for the people i loved the most, who always be around me can accept my decision? and what about commitment? as a child, a student and whatever tittle i am. and last but very important thing to questioned, is he with me, with what i am thinking about?

so is this a realistic for nowadays?

what is that? i am talking about Khitbah, click Khitbah to know more. :)

the end :)

another wordless entry from me

2011-07-21T15:32:00.000+08:00

me want one!

#4 wordless wednesday: not just a toilet sign. note the bar in between :)

2011-07-20T22:04:00.001+08:00

until the time come, in a proper way :)

to be like this one....

until the end.. insyaAllah.

P:S : it says wordless. less word but still can have some word kan. haha ada aku kesah? it's just a matter of blog. takkan nak skema ikut segala rules and regulation. durh. :p

2011-07-15T15:03:00.000+08:00

Just wanna drop by to write here that I miss to blogged! Haaaa. takpe, nanti balik rumah nak blog puas2 lalala:p Andd to whom it may concerned, I'm safe here:p, and pray for our safety back to hometown. Hee:). Assalamualaikum.

2011-07-13T02:14:00.000+08:00

when sorrow knock on the door, tears come to invite them in.

no one to be blame

no worries, dear myself,

He will always be with you.

goodnight

reminiscence : PLKN (part three: the visit)

2011-07-12T02:18:00.000+08:00

part one : here !!!
part two : here !!

lol ! my family semua excited melawat. haha. yelah, sebab mana pernah tengok budak plkn kan since i'm the only one to have a chance for PLKN. hehe. tu botol air kosong kawan pesan suruh isi, semua malas nak turun kantin sebab kena pakai uniform macam nih. heh. ingat senang ke? nak nak lagi part spike boot tu, dengan getah lagi, kena pakai inner lagi, tudung, beret, tali pinggang tu. berminit minit jugak lah nak siap. haha

ada macam kena interview tak? :P this was when they were on the way back to seremban from UTM johor, attending my bro's convocation. that's why pakaian semua skema je. hehe :D

bergambar. haruuss. kenangan paling harum sekali :D nampak kurus sikit tak dari gambar kat first part tadi? hehe.

hehehee :D nampak tak ke-excited-an mereka? haha. tengok spike boot i, kilat tak? kilat tak? hehe. dari tak reti nak shiningkan kasut dah jadi pro dah. hehe.

anddd last but not least... :) kompeni delta. hot to go. hehe. i am so thankful to know them including my jurulatih and all, because they opened my eyes wide about how life is. since i never had been be in such situation to live with friends and no parents before this, they somehow, purposely or unintentionally make me stronger in a way how to appreciate life better. and frankly speaking, this is where i started to learn that every person are unique in their own way, and some have different background as mine, but respect and not being judgmental about someone is important. because everybody are not perfect.

national service batch kedua siri ke-6 2009, in manis memory :)

end. assalamualaikum wbt.

reminiscence : PLKN (part two: friends and activities)

2011-07-10T11:27:00.000+08:00

part two. continuation from HERE

Soo, basically, bila dah ada kat sana, mulalah mood swing. ;p Mula mula datang situ, kami dapat banyak sangat barang free. hehe. Baju utk physical training dua pasang, baju kemeja utk kelas dua pasang, baju celoreng inner dua pasang, seluar slack dua pasang jugak, tudung, tali pinggang stokin, kasut dua pasang(satu utk sukan, satu utk kelas), beret, file khidmat negara, buku nota, pen, getah ikat spike boot hmm lagi apa eh? lupa dah. Ada jugak yang diberi pinjaman. Macam baju celoreng tu, spike boot, 'tali pinggang' utk celoreng tu.. haa so far itu saja yang i ingat okay. Banyak tak? banyakk kann. Bila dah habis plkn, barang barang tu semua taktau nak buat apa.huhu.

Each of the activity ada dress code. Kalau pagi kena physical training, pakai baju PT, seluar sukan, kasut sukan, tudung. Dari atas sampai bawah kena sponsor. So semua sepesen je. Tu yang ada kes tertukar kasut la, seluar la, baju la. Sebab bila dah antar dobi tagging kat baju/seluar boleh terhilang, yes, ada servis dobi utk budak plkn tau. Tapi untuk baju baju yang diberi je. huhu Baju yang bawak dari rumah kena basuh sendiri. Kalau kasut tertukar tu selalu kat surau la. First few weeks selalu sangat ada insiden tertukar kasut. last2 semua buat inisiatif kasi label kasut sendiri. hehe

For the first half of 3 months, semua kelas mental je. lepas PT, breakfast, siap siap pakai baju kelas. As for me, i don't breakfast sometimes, sebab nanti tak sempat nak mandi. So, kelas yang pi menembak, survivor tu semua nanti nanti. Yang malangnya, saya tak sempat pun kelas physical sebab dah keluar awal awal. haha. Sebab? sebab dah dapat tawaran untuk pergi matrikulasi. haha. Ohh lupa nak cakap, i was the second batch for my siri. hehee.

heheh. This were during our first weekend in camp. Aisyah and ain. Semua ni serembanians. hehe :D Tapi jumpa ain waktu dah kat camp la. Both of them are nice. Berani kata tak nice? haha ;p

Delta's. ni baru suku je kot. waktu kat plkn, kitorang ada la jugak outing. walaupun kejap dan sikit malu sebab kena pakai uniform macam kat atas nih. bukan apa, orang public selalu misinterpret ingat kitorang ni pekerja kilang. boleh? hehe :p

ni waktu minggu terakhir untuk kelas mental slot kebudayaan eh? oohh forgot oh. banyak makan semut ni. hehe. every 2 weeks macam tu kelas mental(i called it kelas mental la sebab kelas dia kena banyak berfikir dari bertindak), dia ada slot slot tertentu. i forgot bout the slot, tapi ada macam slot minggu tu mengenali diri kena buat diary, haha. slot etnik kenal budaya masyarakat malaysia, kenegaraan haa camtu laa. pastu before tukar slot lain, ada la macam malam kebudayaan ni, setiap group kena la buat persembahan. kalau group best, maka best la persembahan korang heee :D macam gambar kat atas ni, kitorang baru lepas buat persembahan drama Sindatakrela adaptasi cerita Cindarela hasil nukilan ehem ehem, siapa lagii. dengan kerjasama la tapii. haha :p

this is during our kompeni's duty on weekends. every weekends setiap kompeni kena bergilir gilir jaga kawasan. haha. poyo je bunyik kan :p But that's true la. salah satunye macam gamba atas ni. kitorang kena make sure lawatan ibu bapa berjalan dengan lancar, lepastu nanti kantin kena kemas. Basically macam tu la. kalau dah nak dekat pukul 5pm, kena ~~halau~~ remindkan ibubapa/pelajar suruh balik and siap untuk PT petang. yup, we have PT petang jugak. But basically PT petang weekends selalunye gotong royong jee. Ni tak pakai beret sebab duduk kan, bukan beroperasi. hahaha :D

tolong jangan tengok muka. T.T nak stresskan disini, pemakaian beret tu :P. kau ada? kau ada? haaa jangan jeles. i sampai harini ada tau beret berlambangkan plkn, susah nak dapat tauu haha kalau salah pakai nanti jadi macam chef. memang mula-mula tak reti jugak tapi lama lama dah biasa. lambang tu mesti atas mata kiri, pastu kena sengetkan beret kat kanan tu, baru tak macam chef. hehe

padang kawad. memang sempat lagi ambil gambar. haruslaah. :D ni Delta girls. hehe

Dorm 8. dorm paling hujung sekali. dan paling best sekali, bila kena buat night duty. kehkeh. bila malam malam, nak ronda dorm 8 rasa macam jauhh gila, sebab masuk ke dalam kan. hehe. so kalau night duty kadang kadang sampai dorm 7 jee. hehe. takpe, dorm 8 budak budak semua behave. :P yang best buat night duty ni boleh tengok macam macam aksi tidur. hahaha. :D yang tak bestnye kena berjaga pepagi buta tu bukan buat apa sangat pun. kadang kadang jurulatih tu baik suruh kitorang tidur je kat meja kantin tu takpayah ronda sampai la budak next shift datang. kehkehkeh. kalau malang sikit, jurulaih tu suruh ronda setiap 30 minit. tu yang malas tuh. heee.

to be continued.. :p

#3 Wordless Wednesday

2011-07-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

never let people know that u are worried. just be calm and positive. smile at whatever life throws at you :)

be strong, zahidah.

2011-07-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

resah dihati tidakku pasti,

mungkinku risau atas apa yang bakal terjadi,

namun ku pasti Allah itu lebih Maha Mengetahui,

apa yang berlaku itulah yang terbaik buat diriku ini.

;)

2011-06-30T02:41:00.000+08:00

i was bitten by a

love bug
yet i don't get sick. it's just my heart started to beat faster than usual
when it come to attack me again.

<3

#2 Wordless Wednesday

2011-06-29T23:37:00.001+08:00

2011-06-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

it's okay if you choose to treat me this way because one day you will feel exactly what i felt today.

agreed :)

this sentence I re-post it from one of my friend's status on facebook, Fatin Zulkhair :)

reminiscence : PLKN (part one: registration)

2011-06-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

back then when i was a SPM leaver. it was long holiday and that just doesn't end there. i was luckily selected for the national services. at that moment, i was like.. ''kenapalah akuu???''. because who likes to be selected in national services? kecuali budak yang suka kan benda benda berkaitan ketenteraan, kawad, sun bath, and all. and for me, i am not that fanatic on such things. huhu but by hook or by crook, i knew that i had to go. sebab waktu tu kecoh gila berita pasal budak tak pergi kena panggil lagi sekali la, didakwa la bla blaa. malas aku kalau camtu. baik aku pergi dan layaann ja kann. :D

so here are some of the pictures during registration for my national services. during national services, ada tapi kena tunggu Part two.hehe ;D after national services tak ada pulak. sebab fikir happy dah keluar dari ~~prison~~ camp tuh. hehe. don't get me wrong, national services wasn't that bad. there were some awesomeness and there were some awfulness. :) because life is like riding a rollercoaster. :D

p.s : click gambar untuk tumbesaran. ;)

so inilah situasi dimana budak budak bertuah macam aku yang terpilih untuk NS. this is when we have to gather at Stadium Paroi. tapi bukan semua budak Negeri Sembilan kena berkumpul sini. dia ada zon. ikut tempat camp kita kena pergi kot. chek pun dah lupa naa. hehe

mak aiihhh garang oh muka pakcik ni. tak sampai camp lagi dah boleh imagine betapa strictnye PLKN ni. tengok semua berjalan dengan hati yang pasrah menuju ke bas masing-masing. hehe.

heyy that's me! hehe. lone ranger because i was left behind. i mean, ada dua bus trip to my camp, one bus dah jalan dah. the other one bus ni untuk yang tertinggal like me. huhu. actuallyy i was not that late pun. huhu. sebab it was Friday. dia suruh berkumpul pukul 1.30pm kalau tak salah. tapikan solat jumaat, so i went there after mydad done his prayer la kan. sampai sampai je, i called my friends yang sama camp, diorang kata diorang dah dalam bus. tunggu nak bergerak. so i assumed diorang tggu yang tertinggal la kot. rupanya diorang gerak dulu. tinggal me and a few je. pelik jer, budak lelaki tak pergi solat ke? heh. aishh husnuzon zahidah husnuzon. diorang pergi cepat2 lari pergi stadium kot. :D

i am readdayyy! haha ready lah sangat. sedih je mengenangkan nasib :p. haha. nampak macam 'comel' je en. =.='

lama jugak la kena tunggu, i think about 3-4pm baru naik bus untuk bergerak ke camp. nak pastikan tak ada yang tertinggal kot. oh lupa nak cakap, Kem Putra Putri Alor Gajah is the place for my PLKN. so sampai sampai sana je, aku tengok ramai dah budak dok lepak2 kat kantin camp tu to have their hi tea. and for boys, semua dah sepesen, botak :D. sampai sana je, ada registration, isi-isi borang la, dia check semua maklumat kita, pastu ada short interbiuu lagi, tanya pasal allergy, medical history etc etc. tak lupa jugak, diorang spotcheck beg. ada yang bawak pisau ke gunting ke shaver pun tak boleh rasanya. pernah ada case kan, budak kelar2 tangan pe jadah tahhh? pernah dengar tak? tapi ada je yang terlepas :P handphone time tu dia bagi pegang lagi.

PLKN ni ada sistem kompeni. ala lebih kurang cam group la. nak nama best sikit dia namakan kompeni ala-ala tenteraa. hehe sepatutnya, dalam borang yang dia siapkan, aku ahli kompeni Charlie, tapi atas sebab Delta tak cukup orang, aku kena tolak pegi Delta. huhu. seb baik ada geng senegeri jugak. hehe. kompeni lain yang ada is Alpha and Bravo.

mula mula masa first few days semua kat camp, semua berkawan ikut negeri. i mean, kalau key ell, key ell je. kalau johor, johor je. cina, cina je. melayu, melayu je. and aku pun tak terkecuali. huhu. siap dah boleh label lagi tau, i mean, dah boleh cam kalau budak johor cam mana, budak KL macam mana. memang boleh sangat. tu yang memula aku macam, hmm, tak bestnya macam nii.

jurulatih kat situ semua dilatih. eh haruslahh kan. haha. diorang agaknya dah biasa dengan situasi berpuak2 macam ni, so our first meeting ucapan dengan KJ, or nama full, ketua jurulatih, dia remind dia taknak tengok berpuak puak lagi next time. semua dengan muka blur dan pasrah dan sedih sebab kena pergi plkn, dengar je... belum tentu kitorang nak ikut kan? konon nak protes laaa :P

to be continued..

#1 wordless wednesday

2011-06-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

p.s : wordless wednesday, cool! <3

all about him him him !

2011-06-17T11:18:00.000+08:00

i miss this boy very much. i miss to cuddle with him. i miss to make him grumpy being bullied by me. i miss to get annoyed with his favourite song. i miss to bite his cheeks. i miss to see him with my own eyes. because it's been long i haven't seen him. although it's just few days after seen him. hehe

ini gambar dia mula mula lahir on 20.02.2010. wahh macam best pulak tarikh dia. hehe.

ai aiii capten !

haziq suka mamam dengan makchu kan kan? :p sebab kalau mamam dengan makcu mesti boleh comot comot. tu yang haziq suka kann hehe :p

aaawww.. muka heaven je tido. dulu waktu dia kecik debab, aku selalu kissed dia smpai buat dia terbangun. pastu dengan muka innocent aku cakap kat mama dia ''dia terbangun sendiri, so alang2 adik kiss jelah dia banyak kali'' LOL! :P oh the one that he hold is his Bunny. takde Bunny takleh tido. sekarang Bunny tu dah tak secomel macam dalam gambar ni. dah macamm masam gila kot. TRUST ME. haha :p

ni dah besar sikit tido pun agak extreme sikit okkaay. but still, i love to make him awake :p. taktahu kenapa, bila dia bangun, babbling sorang sorang i macam malas nak layan. but still, aku layan jugak tau. hehe. tapi bila dia tido, rasa macam nak kejut dia suruh dia bangun and play with me. haha.

football is my passion. hahahahaziq cakap . hehe

ohh this is another haziq's favourite. driving a car !

hobby dia bila balik seremban. hehe. mandi pool. tengok.. becak dah lantai porch rumah. seb baik porch banyak space. lepas tu main percikkan air kat makcik2 dia. chehh!. naughtyy dah budak ni. hehe.

and thiisss one, is when dia buat muka comel dengan i nak jugak duduk depan lappy. nak dengar lagu elmo's song la tuu. elmo song tu memang favourite song dia. naik menyampaah aku dengar. haha. mana taknya, lirik dia simple gila. aku pun dah hafal tauu. tapi bila dia tak ada, terngiang ngiang pulak. rinduu. hehe. :)

dulu waktu dia baby pun ada buat entry untuk si BOoolat nih. click here

''A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for''

assalamualaikumm. :)

Tongue-tied Thursday. boleh? haha

2011-06-16T15:37:00.000+08:00

well now i understand what the heck is Wordless Wednesday is. hek'elehh benda kecik ja rupanya.

*sebenarnya jeles lambat sangat tahu, so tak dapat nak buat wordless wednesday. cheh ! :P

ahhh tak kira nak buat jugak. jadi Tongue-tied Thursday la jadinya kan.

before this, i was like..

but later i realize that i just need to

and i believe that

and

ok tu je. eh macam dah quote pulak semua. hehe. and for the very last picture ni, we can see how powerful trust is kan?
and yes, i trust the one that i love and i love the one that i trust. :)

assalamualaikum.

2011-06-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

awwwhh :)

2011-06-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

met atuk just now. it's been long we haven't seen each other. he kissed my cheeks. kalau jumpa selalu salam je. nampak sangat he missed me and i miss him too. huhuhuk. felt guilty coz i did not contacted/met him for so long. and nenek also. she used to cook for us. all the dishes were the greatest of all. though they live not far away from my parents' home, we rarely seen each other lately. guilt build inside me right now. hmm. :(

my holiday begins. and sweet memory of GSDC 2011 :)

2011-06-07T05:40:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum.

yeaahh i'm home now! GSD is over. and glad that everything went almost perfect. alhamdulillah. tak ada perkara memalukan berlaku. hee. why? cause i've always imagine that i'll fall when walk through the stairs wearing the heels. phew! seb baik it didn't happen. it's scary tauu. kot kot terjerumus ke depan teruss melulut Dato' habis lah semua ingat i nak propose dia kan. hahahaa. neaahh, kidding.

all in all, GSD was a great experience. :)

opening ceremony. with emcee coordinator, hazimah and my partner, nazim. they helped a lot. :) without mereka siapalah saya untuk berdiri tegak dan gagah seperti badang berdiri di rostrum di hadapan orang ramai. sorry if i sounds shy, yelah first time jadi emcee untuk kolej. huhu. was a great experience though :))

Sri Ayesha Islamic School. dorang kata mereka bertiga ni adik beradik. bapa/cikgu dia siap datang lagi tau, record lagi anak-anak dia berdebate :) this girl looks shy je kan, tapi she's great giving her opinions and fight for their right. hehe. and confident enough.

one of team IIUM. as far as i know, IIUM hantar berapa team tah, and setiap team tu, macam wakil negara mereka. for this picture, ni team IIUM (kashmyr). gigih laa pakcik pakcik ni. :p

one of the liaison officer for gsdc 2011. hehe. ziehan marissa, floormate, coursemate, collegemate, papermate (sebab selalu pinjam kertas dia jugak:P) lagi apa ..mate? hehe.

and the other liaison officers for gsdc 2011. :) best jadi LO. kan? hehe. tapi part yang tak best kena dengar debate yang kadang2 membosankan. aku dengar satu round je, habis debate tu terus pening, banyak sangat input masuk macam aku pulak nak decide sape menang siapa kalah. hehehe. the best part, dapat jumpa bermacam orang dan menjadi tour guide yang paling comel. . .? hahaha. pengalaman itu la paling penting :)

orang kuat back stage. intan and pang shi yong. sangat fokus buat kerja. mic rosak cepat cepat Pang ni muncul di sebalik langsir stage tuh. and for intan, kesian dia bosan duduk belakang, tapi bosan pun, kerja tetap jalan. hehehe :p dan juga biro protokol yang komited. lepas ni nak tny pasal kedudukan vvip semua dah boleh tny dia dah. dah profesional.:D

closing ceremony. memang tak terang sebab i buat pic ni a bit blur :D saje jeee. haha. :p dimana ada rostrum, disitu ada kami bertiga. hehe. seb baik tak ada benda memalukan berlaku. oh to tell ya, ada ke Dato' tiba tiba suruh up kan nilai prize money utk best speaker. seb baik time tu aku dengar dia mencelah waktu aku tgh highlight the prizes tuh. dengan keberkatan Allah, we manage to make it as calm as we can. padahal jantung rasa cam nak terkeluaq dah. hehe:D

grand finals of the debate. Uitm sh alam Vs National Uni of Singapore. dah jadi macam malaysia vs singapore dah:P and Uitm menang. i think memang layak pun. hehe

me with priya. partner intan. dia ni kepala opening and closing ceremony for gsdc 2011. kalau anything wrong, semua akan blame priya. glad that everyone satisfied ! :D hehe. i am at her height je actually. the heels yang buat i tinggi semacam tu. yelah, nak beat orang tuuu :p

before kemas2 semua ambil gambar. haruslah kan :)

almost all of the gsdc 2011 organisation members. ada yang tak ada sebab pergi hantar budak SAIS pergi sekolah diorang balik. huhuhu. rugi lah. tapi takpela, jasamu tetap dikenang biro-biro jemputan aka prize runners sekalian :)

''hello sayanggg, i happy sangat niii. semua dah overr.

i mean the gsdc 2011. kita boleh dating balik as usual lepas ni tauu.

nanti kita jumpa ya, love you sayang ! ''

choii ! was calling my dad lah. dialog atas rekaan semata mata. hhaha:)

sekian. assalamualaikum.

'Brogabai best' trip. :p

2011-05-26T15:25:00.000+08:00

wwowoooooot ~ ! lama dah tak update. malas plus busy dengan event yang semakin dekat nih. hehe

anyways, lots of things happend recently. yang best best, ade jugak yang kurang best dan tak best langsung. apepun, i thanked to Allah for let me breathe until today. alhamdulilah. :)

well, where should i start? do i need to tell you about event that i'm busy with? or maybe about the awesome experiences i just had this previous days? oh for your information, i am currently in UPM. yup, im in holiday. no class, no seeing lecturer, no failing in tests and all. im still stuck in my college for upcoming event GSDC 2011 hosted by my ~~complicated~~ lovely college. want to know more?. click here :),

now, it has been for uncounted days i did not get back home to seremban. daim betul lah. homesick tahu.huhu. takpe, assobru minal iman, bukan? :) sabar jelah, nnti dah habes event nih, boleh lah balik umah and lepak ~~membazir masa~~ sampai kebosanan. harus aku cari kerja afte this kan. that one i'll think later.

last week, on weekends, i went to Broga Hills and Sg Gabai with my colleagues. ececeech. rakan sekerja lah sangat. haha. tapi betul lah. rakan sekerja for GSDC nih. hehe. it was a last minutes planned. atau plan dulu yang tak kesampaian lagi. haha. kebetulan i went to dapur that friday night and they were up to something. and then i heard about going to Broga. ape lagi, excited mak nyahh. of course lah i nak pergi :D. and i have my sport shoe, so memang boleh lah sangat. what a coincidence :). and they were excited as i am too. hahaha. so yang takde sport shoes tu punyelah cari untuk dipinjamkan. so betapa gigihnye kami nak mendaki Broga hills tuh. kehkehkeh.

oh not to forget, Sungai Gabai. yang ni pulak, lagi la last minutes gila punye last planned. time kitorang dah balik Broga, tengah breakfast, they came up with the plan to go here. adoiai. memang semua kaki jalan. cause most of us including me were sick staying at college all day and night like almost everyday kan. so kononnye release tension and merapatkan hubungan silaturahim lah jugak ni. haha :D at first, there were problem on transportation. tapi last2 pegi jugak dengan satu kereta and two motorcycles. nak nak lagi time kitorang balik kolej tu, ade blackout kat kolej dari pagi. so kononnye panas nak berendamlah. poyo je semua tuh. hehe;p

all in all, last saturday was great and i had new experiences. such as mendaki gunung. haha. jarang pergi mendaki ni. adventerous yet was awesome. alhamdulillah. impian nak mendaki Broga agak tercapai walaupun impian yang 'alahaaai' je kan. agak tercapai sebab i did not finished up my pendakian up to fourth peak, the highest and the checkpoint of Broga hills yang terakhir. my last checkpoint ony at the third peak. sebab ape? stomach-ache. sabar jelah. aaar, tak puas. tapi alhamdulilahh :) and for Gabai, tercapai jugak. tapiii air die too cold which i cannot bear much.walaupun time tu cuaca panaslah jugak. huhu. kejap je rendam pastu bertenggek kat tepi, sejuk wohh. takmau takmau, sakit kepala otak i asyik mengigigigigiill je. hehe. tak paham betul macam mane dorang boleh tahan dengan air yang sejuk gila tuh. eheh. balik kolej je, semua orang flat. malam meeting, sume sakit2 kaki. tulah, tak buat streching dulu. semua pulak bukan kaki exercise. memang torn out lah kan. hahah.

introducingg... the masterminds for the Brogabai trip. frm left, Nazim and abg Safuan. dua dua ni jadi driver, bodyguard, leader, sweeper, tourguide, ishh semua lah. kalau dorang takde, memang tak sampai la kat Broga and Gabai nih. hehee anyways, thanks to them for making the plans became a reality ;) haha. tengok baju abg Safuan tu. die tu memang hantu mendaki gunung nih. sume gunung die nak panjat. Broga ni dah kira macam cikai2 je bagi die. chet :p

kitorang bertolak pukul 4pagi keatas. singgah 7E and stesen minyak pastu mendaki punye mendaki diselang seli dengan rehat akhirnye kitorang sampai puncak pertama pukul 6lebih.

baru sampai puncak pertama amik gambar excited wohh. sebab tak percaya kitorang dah mendaki setinggi nih. haruslah kan. hehe. ni depa ni paling excited :p. before naik puncak kedua, kitorang siap breakfast lagi. minum milo panas(diorang bukan aku) buatan abg Safuan. baguskan, kebajikan dijaga. haha. ni lah jugak punca punca saya tak sampai puncak teratas sebab sakit perut lepas breakfast. sigh ~ nature calls betul lah. hehe.

hehehee nampak tak my face yang over excited itu. ngeee :D

before meneruskan perjalanan ke puncak seterusnya. ish orang yang amik ni tak reti ke nak centre kan gmbar. grr.

introducing... my colleagues. hahaha. poyo lah kan bunyiknye. hihii. sejuk tauu air ni. takpaham aku dorang ni boleh rendam lama-lama. aku rendam kejap je dah rasa cam kaki nk beku. eheh.

seee told ya. the water was TOOOO cold. taknak ah kejang kaki berendam karang susah pulak. duduk tepi ni pun dah best dah. hehehe;P

sekian. the end of Brogabai trip.

assalamualaikum.:)

it's okay. everybody hurts someday.

2011-05-14T03:43:00.003+08:00

well it is not easy to leave something that have bring cheers for almost every moment in you life. but when it comes to rules, i can’t do much but to let it go for my certain goodness. deleting the memories now and hoping for great memory to come in future, in a better way. and it is kind of freaky because i was like throwing out the bests pearl found in the sea and may never get the same thing like it. been saying for many times but i guess it will never get anyone to understand it.

university is on holiday and lots of plans have been making now. not to run away but to make sure i have never repeat the same mistake again. sickest thing that happen to you will never look for the Exit door in your mind. and that, actually do some good reminding you not to do the same mistake ever again. it’s a damn when you flashed it back and see your ugly truth. it is really a damn. you will feel like you want to stab repeatedly the people who started it. and later you realise that you are going to stabbed yourself. and your eyes start to rain heavily.

everyone get affected by the past wondering why this and that. could not tell much and it maybe because of some personal thing. if and only if you are the part of their lives, officially.
and to make thing more sick, you are knowing that the other can live their life out loud pretending like nothing is happening or had happened.

yup, i know you will not understand. maybe someday. someday. trust me. now, we’ll do on my way this time. a new procedure i call it, a safer way. for everyone’s sake. and please don’t take things for granted.

p.s : words cannot express your feeling but it can figure out what you feel.
assalamualaikum.

TAHUN SATU part II.

2011-05-14T01:29:00.001+08:00

waktu aku dah daftar kat kolej, aku macam taktahu nak pergi blok aku kat mana. time tu rasa cam jauuh je blok aku. oh lupe nak cakap blok aku blok Melati. pastu, ade P.U tunjuk kan aku. before that aku tengok board tulis nama student n number bilik, aku tengok bilik aku sorang je, kire aku duduk dengan senior lah nanti kan. kat kunci aku dia tulis 1.115, okeh tingkat satu. waktu tu aku kekabut sampai aku jadi confuse, tingkat satu tu atas ke bawah ? seb baik akak aku bagitau tingkat bawah namenye ground, tingkat satu ataslah. itu pun aku boleh confuse T.T.

lepas naik tu, aku cam pelik awat sunyi semacam nih? takde orang ke? mane sume oranggg?! aku masuk bilik, yang bising family members aku je, dalam toilet pun takde. mulela imaginasi mengarut aku mendominasi diri. sampai terfikir aku duduk sorang je kat floor tu. tidaaaaak ! T.T tapi aku cool je lah. aku tengok jam belom lagi kul 5. maybe dorang tengah siap kot. actually aku pun takut gak, sebab dah la aku sorang2 kat bilik. i know i have to make friends. so time ni kemahiran berkomunikasi sangatlah kritikal. hoho

tengok, ada ala-ala hotel tak? hahaha. beruntung gila aku rasa dapat kolej yang lawa tak macam kolej kolej lain. tingkap pulak bukan yang berkeping kaca tu tapi macam tingkap hotel la. siap tinted lagi. pergh memula aku menapak kat sini memang kembang la hidung, jobor tak hengat. bangge tu kalau nk bndingkan dengan kolej lain yang buruk macam dah nak runtuh pun ada. haha. biasala tu memula masuk kannn. hihihii.so time tu aku mmg positive gila lah. semangat berlebih lebih. tapi orientasi memang macam haraam. sesapa yang baca please don’t get mistaken. i mean, sape je yang suka taaruf/orientasi yang boring dan memenatkan ini?? it is a fact :) my orientation week last for a month. yup A MONTH. a week for Perkasa Putra, a week for college, and it was hectic and very dramatic. nak cerita sini pun tak habislah. haha. we called it ~~Berpuaka~~ BERPESAKA and a week for floor orientation. yup, my floor pun ade orientasi. pelik tapi benar. malas nak cerita lebih2, dah adat sini. jadi sebagai penduduk sini haruslah aku terima. :)

this was the first interesting note i found sticked on one of shower door in the toilet at my floor. mula mula tak faham. blur. kenapa SPA PEARL?. memang sangat sarcastic ayat dia. i likee~ bile aku melalui orientasi baru aku tahu yang floor aku ni rupenya ada nama. nama dia PEARL. siap ada lagu lagi. hahaha. gila tak gila? baguskannn. haha. lagi satu penemuan baru aku jumpe bile aku masuk sini. scroll pleasee.

seriously ! i have never seen any kind of this kat mana mana except dalam kolej aku ni. and i was like ‘ ……..???’ lama gak aku termenung kat benda ni. tercari cari gak aku mane ‘tempat untuk tos'nye setahu aku ayam n ikan je tos bile dah keluar fridge. taktahu pulak aku baju pun ada. bile dah lebih sebulan aku duk situ, baru aku dapat figure tos pakaian tu macam mana bile ade budak buat ‘tos pakaian’. masuk bilik aku terkekek sorang sorang mengenangkan kenaifan aku time tuh. hihihihii;p

i got this from my family for my tahun satu in upm. :) i hang it on my softboard for my whole tahun satu. insyaAllah umur panjang, akan di gantung untuk tahun dua pulak. and thanks. hehe.

floormates. tengok muka semua exhausted dan masam je kan. biasalaaa orientasi. nak nak kat ktdi ni kan. time ni baru lepas kena marah dengan ~~singa~~ sape tah, lupa dah. yang penting kitorang tetap senyum. malas nak layaann kan. lalalala. waktu orientasi ni aku ada demam. damn! rugi betul aku tak tengok drama yang berlaku sepanjang orientasi tu. kehkehkeh.

kami semua eksaited. freshman lah katekan. memang muka fresh macam tak pernah masuk Uni je memasing. hoho. tengok siap nak tayang tayang lagi beg kolej. haha.

ni waktu kitorang punya ‘malam kebudayaan’. kira penutup orientasi camtu la. kitorang buat pentomen. menang kot. tapi bukan first laa. hahaha. ade yang muka dalam ni dah tak nampak dah batang idung kat sini sekarang. dah keluar kot.

ni pulak time ‘hari sukan’. first time pakai baju ktdi. haha. so semua nampak baru je. siap pakai matrik card lagiii. tak boleh belahh. hoho. sebulan pertama memang kitorang sangatlah exhausted. macam benda didedahkan. elok lah jugak aku rasa. kalau delay delay nanti ganggu waktu study. takmau akuu. huhu

haaaa kan aku dah cakap kalau cerita pasal orientasi ni mau satu jilid buku baru habis. adoi. senang cerita masuklah ktdi rasai lah sendiri. kerana pengalaman itu sangat berharga. :))

TAHUN SATU part (1)

2011-05-09T15:03:00.001+08:00

still fresh in my mind. satu tahun yang lepas benda ni berlaku. waktu tu aku dekat rumah cousin aku kat shah alam. keputusan tawaran ipta dah keluar. tapi time tu bukan waktu yang official boleh buat semakan. aku sehari awal. sebab aku stalk dalam facebook aku tengok ada budak bagi link boleh tembus tengok semakan hari itu. biasalah dah lama sangat cuti tu yang aku excited nak check tuh. hahaha hari itu 17 JUN 2010. bile aku dah enter ic number aku, die cakap

‘’sukacitanya..

nama : nurzahidahzaidan

ic :…..

universiti : UPM

kursus : bachelor science (biotechnology). ‘’

lepastu ada lah nota kaki cakap suruh aku masuk web esmp upm utk confirmation blablabla. memula aku macam blur. aku dapat upm ke?? tapi ade la jugak aku menjerit ~~nyaring~~ comel lepas aku check. alhamdulilah lah kan. pastu kazen aku tanya aku dapat mana. tapi since itu bukan hari official untuk buat semakan, so aku tunggu la hari besok kot kot ade perubahan ke kan baru aku bagitahu die. hehe. esoknya 18 Jun 2010, aku check sekali lagi, okey memang takde perubahan. cousin aku pun cam dah expect je aku dapat upm. so sesama la kami belajar kat sini. hahaha.

bila aku buat confirmation dalam web upm, die bagi la details pasal kolej mana aku stay, number matrik aku sume. cousin aku la yang tolong terangkan. waktu tu number matrik pun aku taktau yang mana satu, sebab banyak sangat nombor dalam tuh. hahaha. die bagitahu aku yang aku dapat kolej depan, die punye kolej belakang. camtu la budak upm klasifikasikan kolej2 kat upm ni. pastu aku pun lagi lah blur. aku tanya ape beza kolej depan kolej belakang kolej tengah kolej tepi …?. ehehkks. pastu dia kate la aku punye kolej ni kolej tradisi die punye kolej serumpun. kolej aku murah sikit bayar sebab… oke aku lupa sbb ape. pastu dia kata selesa lagi dari serumpun. cume yang tak bestnye kolej depan ni strict sikit, banyak aktiviti, tak cukup merit tendang keluar, kalau serumpun relaks je tapi biliknye tak se-selesa kolej depan. camtulah figure yang aku dapat. memang betul pun. bila aku masuk sini memula memang stress sikit sebab macam macam lah. scroll bawah nanti aku cerita.

jadi aku pun dapat surat dari upm suruh aku daftar kat kolej aku pada hari ahad bersamaan 4July2010. maka bermulalah kehidupan aku sebagai seorang mahasiswi Universiti Putra Malaysia. ecececehh.

first day aku daftar, aku macam dah lambat jugak la. hahaha. waktu aku datang, tak ramai orang dah. waktu tu aku dah dengar pengumuman suruh berkumpul pakai baju riadah. pukul 5. so aku datang about 4pm cmtu. before that aku pergi daftar kat dewan besar urus pasal daftar universiti, medical check sume lah. baru aku pegi daftar kolej. aku ingat lagi, depan aku time tu budak sarawak. memula aku ingat dia budak indonesia ke apa, sebab time aku tanya dia waktu tengah kelam kabut tu, cara dia jawab macam slang indonesia. later i realised itu slang sarawakians. time tu aku tak tahu dia sape, tapi now, bile flash back balik, baru aku tahu nama die. takperlu la aku bagitahu siapa kan. yang penting appearence dia sedap mata memandang :).

bile ingat balik time aku memula masuk dulu, aku rasa macam kelakar tau. macam rusa masuk kampung. cececehh.

to be continued. . . .

p/s: maklumlah ade masa terluang boleh bebel banyak banyak dalam blog. hohoho

2011-05-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

jangan pandang pelik. aku memang lagi banyak melanocytes dari mak aku. tu yang kelam sikit tuh T.T tulah akibatnya bila kuat main time kecik. eheks. tengok laaaaa nanti kalau aku duduk obersea compom aku putih balik. kalau kat sini susah sikit nak putih balik.kehkehkeh. so happy mother's day mak!. eheheks.

and thank to Allah for lending you for me. hoping He give me more and more seconds, minutes, and hours and days and years for let me to express my cuteness with all the complaining here and there and to make your life such a hectic. hehe :D

p.s : jangan sesapa berani cakap aku dah sama besar dgn mak aku, aku nangis karanggg. haaaa. grrr

the end. assalamualaikum.

makanan heaven bawah langit.

2011-05-08T13:45:00.000+08:00

sekarang ni weather kat malaysia tersangaaatlah hot. tulah, orang suruh live towards green culture taknak dengar. kan sekarang dah hot. huhu. tapi aku terfikir gak, kalau takde aircond boleh ke hidup zaman moden macam ni? aku terbayangkan library. kalau library tu takde aircond, mesti tak ramai budak nak masuk kan. sebab takde feel nak study kononnye lah. dulu orang tak guna aircond sebab cuaca luar memang dah best. tak sepanas harini. tapi kalau guna excessive aircond harini, kelak makin panaslah dunia ni kan. hmm. pening jugak aku yang comel ni memikir alternatif terbaik. lapisan ozon takboleh rebuild. so aku harap nanti ada la golongan bijak pandai macam ~~aku~~ amalina tu ke, sape lagi yang pandai math tu, erm.. adi putra ke kan cipta satu alat yang boleh tebalkan balik lapisan ozon tuh. okeh dah lari sangat dah ni topic aku. tehehee

semalam kawan aku ~~makan~~ minum coolblog. die order coolblog cendol. tapi cendol yang jual tepi jalan lagi sedap kot!. pelik je aku. dah nama pun cendol tapi dalam air tu, cendolnye sendiri takde. rasa santan terlebih je ade lah. jadi muak lah kawan aku tu. takpe takpe, takde rezeki kau semalam. nanti aku belanja kau lagi ye piqa :)

tetiba teringat pasal hari aku balik rumah hari ahad haritu. parents aku singgah satu restoran ni yang dulunya dia berniaga secara kecil-kecilan je. aku teringat waktu aku comel berganda ganda ni, dia jadi vendor tepi jalan je. mungkin ade lah kot tempat official macam kat rumah ke, restoran kecil ke untuk dia buat uli tepung semua tu. tapi sekarang, aku tengok advance dah. superb ah. tak perlu nak join MLM konon jual score A la itu la pastu serang budak-budak comel macam aku kat Uni ni, tapi sayang ade jugak yang tertewas. semata mata nak cepat kaya kan? aku rasa nikmat yang datang secara perlahan lebih dihargai tau. duit tak kemana dik oi :)

so berbalik kepada tajuk, aku ni suka benor la lari. kena makan kismis ni kasi kuat fokus balik. hahaha. oke oke berbaliiiikk.... restoran tu dia jual cendol and rojak. pergh! sesiapa serembanians yang tak kenal gerangan yang bakal aku cakap ni, memang sah die seremban celup. alaaa macam Ijan jugak la pangkat dia. tapi aku rasa pemilik cendol ni lagi legend kot. dah lamaa dah dia wujud. time tu owner ijan baru habis belajar kot. *erkk sesuka hati aku jer*. cendol dia dulu kini dan selamanya sedap ! actually aku pun dulu tak berapa gemar dengan cendol ni, tapi aku minum dan makan jugak la. cume yang macam cacing kaler hijau tu aku tinggalkan. kiranya aku makan santan dan gula kelapa yang digaul dalam santan tu jer. hahaha. baik tak payah makan kan. tapi sekarang, aku bedal dah semua. cedaaap haha.

aku berkenan betul dengan container yang die letak cendol ni. sangattt klasik. cendol ni sedap kalau santan dia tak terlalu manis dan cendol dia sedap. macam gmbar atas ni. selain cendol tu sendiri, boleh additional dengan pulut, kacang merah, jagung etc etc.sedaaaap. nak nak lagi musim 'summer' kat Malaysia ni memang sesuai lah kalau beli cendol neh. penyejuk tekak dan penghilang dahaga.

pakcik restoran ni bukan saje jual cendol tapi second highest ranking customer beli adalah rojak. rojak dia pun superb. aku suka! aku suka! hehee. dia punye cucur tu garing, sayur dia letak tak rasa layu and kuah dia penambah kepada kesedapan. memannngg sedap :)

tadaaaaaa, ni lah rojak dia. aku tengok gamba ni je dah terliur. nak makann lagiiiiiii. uhukuhuk. harga pun mampu lah jugak nak bayar. semua harga standard je. walaupun abah saya yang bayar. hehehe. kat hotel 5 bintang pun belum sure boleh dapat sedap macam ni. :p

jadi kat mana makanan heaven ni boleh didapati kat seremban? cari lah memana yang ada signboard kat bawah ni..........

the end

assalamualaikum

random.

2011-05-08T02:02:00.000+08:00

haaa amik kauuu update sekali dua dalam one time. hahaha. takdelah. ni just a short entry. nak long entry refer sini. just nak share satu video nih. just want you guys judge la sendiri. for me, it is sooo adorable tapiiiii.. err. entah! heh. jangan ade budak sini macam tu jugak dah lah. tengok lah sendiri. kecik kecik dah pandai nohh. :)

video ni i clicked accidently dalam youtube. kat 'Most Popular'. tengok la viewers die. by the time aku tgk sekarang ni je dah 1 juta. gila kan.

kucing lawannya kucing. manusia lawannya manusia.

2011-05-08T01:44:00.000+08:00

happy tengok si ibu kucing dapat anak baru setelah beberapa lama meroyan ke hulu hilir mencari anaknya yang hilang. they suits to be together bukan :)

kucing ni dah lama mundar mandir kat floor aku ni. sekarang kalau anak dia bersama sama dia total dah jadi empat to enam ekor dah. banyak kan? tapi yang aku nampak tadi seekor sahaja yang dia ngendong. kalau ikut logik kucing selalunya lahir anak tiga empat sekaliguss kan, yang seekor ni pun dari kelahiran dia yang kedua. apa maksud itu? sila la baca bebelan aku yang seterusnya kat bawah ni ye. aku anggap dia dah dua kali kelahiran la since aku masuk kolej aku yang ~~complicated~~ tercinta ni. walaupun berkemungkinan jugak dia dah beberapa kelahiran sebelum itu. sedih sikit la. why we are being selfish towards them? hmmm

nak dijadikan cerita. ada lah seorang pencinta haiwan ini, sangat suka akan kucing. taktahu la. manusia kan. asal nampak sesuatu yang cantik atau comel, mesti nak jadikan harta dia. harusss berada di tangan dia. jadi, ibu kucing berwarna hitam coklat ni lahirkanlah anak 3 ekor. comeeeell. seekor berbelang hitam, seekor coklat, seekor lagi..... okeh tak ingat. maka, si pencinta haiwan ni gemar dan geram melihat kecomelan makhluk tuhan ni lalu dibela, diberi makanan, minum serta tempat tinggal. taktahula, aku pun tak sure ibu kucing itu diberi makan minum tempat tinggal juga atau tak. tapi aku positif je waktu tu, jaga lah kot. yelah anaknye nak susu kan :) tapi ada jugak aku nampak dia bagi susu kat anak dia. eloklah, kebajikan makhluk tuhan yang comel itu dibela. alhamdulilah.

semakin hari semakin besar si comels itu. maka, kehidupan seharian si comels itu perlu si pencinta haiwan ini ambil kira, kan? yelah, dah pangkat kanak-kanak mesti lah kena ada hiburan. dibawa si comels ke taman berdekatan sini, takdelah taman mane pun, rerumput jelah, bagi mereka kenal dunia luar kan. suka tengok dia orang cuddling together. like a one happy family. i mean the cats okayy. pastu kat floor aku suka tengok main kejar kejar sesama sendiri. kadang kadang kejar la kita orang yang takut a.k.a geli dengan kucing ni. 3 ekor ni apa yang aku nampak sangat rapat dengan mak dia, si ibu kucing tu. kalau si pencinta haiwan ni tinggalkan semua kucing kat luar, boleh la nampak mereka cuddling with each other, jilat-jilat, berlaga kaki tangan kepala with each other. awwww that was sooo cute. and THEY SUITS JUST TO BE TOGETHER as a family. syukur jugak lah aku tengok si pencinta haiwan ni jaga si comels tu dengan baik. pernah aku nampak dia mandikan si comels tu. yelah, barang dia suka mestilah dia belai betul betul kan. alhamdulilah, again, makhluk Allah ni dia jaga belai betul-betul.

tapi ape kena mengena dengan ayat kurang senang aku yang kat atas tuh kan? sebab tu orang kata jangan dengar cerita sebelah pihak. jap jap aku tengah figure out apa ayat omputehnye. erm, dont judge books by its cover. sesuai tak? hahaha. whateverr lah. adelah suatu hari yang indah, burung berkicauan, matahari menyinari, pokok melambai lambai dari luar tingkap aku, sedap mata memandang, alam mempersonaka, okay stop! stop! dipendekkan, dengan secara tetiba aku dapat berita ~~gembira~~ neutral dari sumber sememangnya boleh dipercayai, yang si pencinta haiwan ni dah keluar kolej, like forever.... mula mula aku macam fikir, maybe kejap je lah kot, dia nak buat research ke apa kan. sampai sekarang aku pun tertanya jugak adakah si pencinta haiwan ni menetap lagi kat floor or tak. tapiii ~~ada aku kesah?~~ apa yang aku nak fokus sekarang ni, si comels dan ibunya. kalau dia dah stop belajar sini or halted for awhile dan tak comeback again tu kolej, mesti dia kena kemas-kemas barang dia bawak balik rumah kan. dan adakah termasuk kucing-kucing yang dah dia belai itu? yupp telahan aku memang benar belaka, biasalah manusiaa. bila dah sayang sesuatu mesti taknak renggang kan. nak-nak lagi di belai sejak kecil dari tak dapat jalan sampai dah pandai panjat tembok. oohhh kalau aku mesti lah aku pun taknak tinggalkan macam tu sahaja. :)

BUT, aku pelik betul. kenapa dia bawak si comels sahaja? kenapa ibu si comels dia tak bawak sekaliiii? aku ingat lagi malam tu ibu kucing tu meroyan mengiau ngiauuu kat floor aku. bising kot! aku tak faham lah apa cuba dia lakukan, tapi as a human who can THINK, i think the mommy cat were searching for her kids. and that was soooo sad. dia ngiau ngiau depan pintu si pencinta haiwan ni, mengharapkan si pencinta haiwan ni buka pintu dan bagi dia menjilat jilat badan anaknye dan cuddling as they always did. but that was just a waste. because her kids were gone forever from her sight. dan dia cuba lagi ngiau ngiau dalam restroom, searching around the space. and again, that was just a waste. dan the mommy cat try again to search everywhere, waiting infront of our room, and her face looked like she was pledging to us "pleaseee.. give me back my kids. i miss them!'' but we don't have it! although kami sentiasa menjerit ''janganlaaa datang kat aku, aku tak suka la'', "eeeeee shoohh shooohh'', but we do not ~~kidnapped~~ have your kids, dear mommy cat. We don't hate you, we just somehow has a feeling of creeps when you were near. that is all. 2 minggu jugak la dia duk merayau rayau dengan bunyi kucingnye. nak kata lapar, maybe jugak lah. tapi kesianlah, NAMPAK SANGATLAH ibu kucing tu mencari anaknyee. aduhaii.

itu yang aku kurang senang tuh. kenapa ambil anak je? kenapa tak ambil ibu sekali? boleh imagine tak kalau kau pregnant 9 bulan, lepastu lahirkan anak susah payah, kasi susu, cuci buntut dia lepas dia berak, dan kau didatangi seorang yang baik memuji kurniaan Allah atas kecomelan, kegebuan anak kau mewarisi kau, dan tak semena mena baby kau hilang diambil manusia baik itu tanpa sebab yang munasabah. nak kata kau tak mampu, terlebih mampu dah. pernah tak kau fikir benda macam tu towards animal? yes, i know you have the feeling to keep and own cute things, but kenapa tak ambil ibunya sekali yang kurang comel dimamah usia. sebab taknak kena jaga ibu kucing yang mungkin pregnant lagi eh? selalunya macam tulah alasan. tapi mungkin si pencinta haiwan ni ada sebab yang lebih prihatin. aku harapkan. tapi kesian weh aku tengok, ibu kucing tu pregnant lagi, tapi at the same time still mencari-cari anaknya yang hilang. mungkin risau dengan kebajikan anaknya kan. kesian.

yang kelahiran kedua ni pun sama. mungkin tuhan tu kurniakan anak yang comel dan manja kepada ibu kucing ni. sekali lagi, aku dengar dari sumber yang macam boleh dipercayai, ada seorang lagi pencinta haiwan ni, membela anak kucing hasil benihan si ibu kucing yang sama. itu yang aku cakap tadi, aku nampak si ibu kucing ni ngendong seekor je. dan bila kawan aku nak test test usik anak dia, dia macam nak defend, muka macam nak kick boxing je kawan aku. mungkin dia trauma kot orang asyik ambil anak dia. aku rasa ada 3 ekor. tapi, wallahualam, taktahu la, mungkin lagi dua ekor di belai oleh pencinta haiwan yang lain. harapannya kalau pencinta haiwan ni nak bawa balik rumah 'si comels II' ni, bawa la balik sekali dengan ibunya sekali. barulah one happy family. :)

semua orang pun perlukan belaian si ibu. tak kira la kita dah besar panjang, kadang hidup ni macam tak lengkap kalau tak dengar ~~bebelan~~ nasihat mak kan.

because mom are everything. :)

nooooo. i'm not mad. i just have something running inside my mind tell me to write this down in the blog. so amikk kau dah berjela. and i dont hate anybody. :)

assalamualaikum.

i love my...... contest

2011-04-27T14:33:00.002+08:00

contest taken from here.

alaaa tak pandai la nak teteka ni. tapi try jelah.heh

i love my KITCHEN contest !!

alasan : sebabbb errr, jap bior chek pikior dulu sebab nye. tehehe;p.

meh la sesama teka.

kalau korang menang leh share hadiah dgn aku. kehkehkeh

AISYAHjais'SBeloG

.Minda Kiddo.

jangan mendendam hehe.

2011-04-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

some people says that...

and they even have some ways to make the sweetest revenge ever.....

but please, just say...

because we are born to be different. so accept differences and dont forget to think about others' feeling :)

world were created not only for you to live in, but for millions, trillions and infinite numbers of living and non-living things to live here. so, respect or rest in peace.

peace!

assalamualaikum. :)

p.s : videos that tell us to accept differences. say yes to MATLUTHFI

creativities :)

2011-04-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

well, i may be left behind but at least i'm not the last.

So, have you heard about VLOG?. it is an acronym for Video log. but BLOG bermaksud 'book log'? hurrrrrm.. teeett salah. well, that's why some of our people think english is hard (including me, hehehe). because they are so flexible. let us take another example, if mouse in plural is mice, then why not house in plural is hice? kan kan kan. kenapa house in plural bukan hice ek kalau mouse in plural is hice? mat saleh ,mat saleh. suka buat aku benci kau technically. :p (but i love Avril and Taylor swift tau, Colbie caillat pun, eh kejap! Bruno Mars pun jugak la, errrrr, eheh hekk ).

okaaaaayy back to the topic, vlog and blog has kinda lots of similarites. although they are not the same on interpreting the meaning of it but whoever has vlog atau blog ini adalah mereka yang comel macam saya. hoho. vlog ni macam blogger like me, tapi they didn't write, but they record things in creative ways. to tell you, i think vlog is much more best-er than blog. i wonder how come they have so much times of editing all the videos at the same time being a student? cause most of the vlogger is the university students. bukan kat universiti yang biasaq ja tapi ni oversea. aih, i think most of the vlogger i watched tengah study kat oversea. aku rasa dorang ni rindu malaysia sebab tu rajin buat videos untuk mengingatkan kita yang kat malaysia ni bahawa dorang wujud. market market. kehkehkeh.:p

and and kebanyakkan vlogger ni are boys. ce teka cer teka kenapa ramai lelaki je. .? :D selain dari sifat pemalu kaum saya untuk menunjukkan muka di alam maya, ade lagi sebabnye tauuuu. sebabb lelaki ni malas nak menulis, dorang suka perkara yang practical. so dari situ la dorang ni ekspress kan kekreatifan mereka. and they did ! kan kann. tapii, don't get me wrong, ade jugak some of them beside being a vlogger they also a blogger at the same time. and untuk si cantik di luar, takperlu la nak tiru nak buat vlog ni. sebab tak seswaaai uu. huhuhu. biarkan saja si jejak ~~handsome~~ memenuhi ruang videos Youtube :D

inianwarhadi
aimanazlan
matluthfi
shahrincool

....
*and the list is expected to expand soon*

and i am ~~VERY~~ afraid that there will be some silly ~~morons~~ nerd guys yang suka immitate depa yang best nih. that time kita akan mula rasa all the vlogger ni poyo la sume kan. and that would be cause some annoyment..? eh ade ke ayat tu? but you know what i mean right. hahaha.

dorang ni kalau masuk short vid films boleh menang nih. kalau kat blog ade contest kenapa vlogger takde contest2 camni jugak. mesti dorang akan buat yang terbest and content of their video pun mesti terbaik.

okey penat dah menulis. here are one of my favourite videos watched ever. salah satu cara dakwah untuk belia. eceeh :)

dont easily judge people. remember, there were always two sides of a coin. consider the things that you don't know. because things are not always they seem to be. agreed :))

can you be reserved?

2011-04-24T09:46:00.000+08:00

in case if you are wondering,

i just want to remind you, again, that i'm still the old me,

obviously i'm older than yesterday,

but facts never gets old.

it's just time that makes it grow fonder.

and now i am wondering,

are you with me?

or tired waiting for so long,

to keep this <3 dormant for a-long-while?

i say what i mean,

and i mean what i said,

undeniably, i am tired too,

to keep it silent in my heart,

but i know,

i just need to be patient,

A LOT OF PATIENCE.

hoping it is worth waiting... amiin.

boiled by S.aureus

2011-04-21T15:06:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum.

pada hari rabu nak masuk hari khamis dua minggu yang lepas, Staphylococcus Aureus telah menyerang kulit seorang yang digelar si comel di bahagian kaki melalui luka kecil bersaiz nano size mungkin, hasil daripada kegatalan saya digigit oleh sesuatu yang masih tak dapat dikenal pasti. maka, disebabkan bahagian kaki si comel itu kekurangan bulu roma yang bertugas sebagai pelindung dari jangkitan kuman atau nama glamornya microbes. menurut doktor lagi, jangkitan itu mungkin disebabkan oleh kaki pesakit yang terlalu manja dan comel lalu dia allergik dengan benda benda jahat nih. kesian kakiku T.T. eh maksud saya, kesian kaki si comel itu. huhu.

menurut pesakit yang comel ini, beliau tidak meng'expect' yang luka ini akan menjadi teruk. disapu ubat TYT milik roomatenya untuk meredakan bengkak pada mulanya. namun sehari selepas yang dirasakan pesakit bagai berminggu minggu, bengkak itu semakin 'mencomel' dan membengkak lalu menimbulkan rasa kurang senang dan mengurangkan keselesaan si comel untuk berjalan. namun, akibat komitmen yang perlu diberikan pada minggu itu, pesakit masih belum menjejakkan kaki ke klinik. diminta yang lain jangan tiru habit ini melainkan mahu ingin sakit terus menjinakkan diri dalam diri anda. huhuhu.

sekarang. dah hampir dua minggu si comel ini berulang alik ke klinik di dalam universitinya. masih segar di dalam ingatan apabila si comel ini mula mula mendapatkan treatment. tepat bermulanya hari pertama mengikut takwim kalendar, iaitu isnin, doktor telah mengarahkan si comel untuk buang dan kasi cuci semua Staphylococcus Aureus yang telah menternak di dalam kulit si comel serta kaum kerabatnya. Aneh sekali ketika treatment dilakukan, si comel tidak begitu trauma dengan apa yang dlihatnya, gunting tajam yang comel yang digunakan doktor untuk guntingkan kulit, pisau kecil yang pernah diguna si comel untuk dissect tikus diguna untuk membesarkan luka memudahkan perjalanan S.aureus untuk keluar, kapas yang menimbun untuk menyahut kemuntahan S.aureus bersama kaum kerabat termasuklah darah, jarum dan spray bius yang rasa seperti tak lut je dengan si comel, jarum untuk cucuk kat muntot. adoi memang mencabar hari itu kata si comel. terima kasih kepada Allah kerana telah menguatkan semangatnya :).

namun, masuk hari kedua dan seterusnye, si comel mula merasakan trauma bau ubat di dalam treatment room. minggu yang terawal, terasa sedikit trauma untuk dicuci luka akibat sakit yang dirasanya. pedih. (Y.Y). tiga hari dicucuk untuk.... err, tak sure di situ, harus tanya lain kali kan.huhu. besok, masuklah hari yang ke-8 si comel ini pergi ke klinik untuk mencuci. sedih sedikit apabila missy mengatakan dalam treatment yang latest bahawa luka itu masih terbuka. adoi, cepatlah tutup wahai lubang di kaki ku ini. ehhh salah, cepatlah sembuh wahai luka, rintih si comel..amiin.

apepun, si comel ini sekarang bersyukur kerana luka itu semakin sembuh, insyaAllah. dan berharap agar tidak lagi dijangkiti jangkitan seperti itu dan sihat selalu. amiiiiinn :D

been trying to find somthing that is similar like mine tapi tak jumpa. mine lagi comel. yang ni macam teruk lagi je. huhu. shiann die. so inilah rupanya kalau Staphylococcus aureus, MOSTLY infect our skin. huhuhuu.

ya Rabbi bimbinglah kami.

2011-03-26T04:06:00.000+08:00

lets unite and solve the problems together. we don't need to blame on each other. but we should think something for a better. everyone is not perfect. but we complete each other towards perfection. why should we reminiscence something that does not give any answers by the questions and wondering? years passed by, we cannot expect something similar like what had been done years before. yet, we can make it as an inspiration for us for better future. it is non appropriate to put the blame on one shoulder but think, did we contribute almost enough and perfectly done our job? as saying goes, put the blame on yourself first before pointing it to others. are we perfect enough? look into yourself on the mirror, then we'll know what degree we are. above all the organisms on earth, there are Only One who knows everything and destine what is the best for us. think, did we have the right to blame others? definitely no.

me myself have so much errors in my life. lets us decrease all the errors towards negligible value. and i would love to accept anyone who can guide me. i am not strong enough, not a good debater, not that brave facing people who condemn my religion,my family and friends,and also, my community. but i do have my own word and wonder. i wish i could be the one who can change for better environment in here and solve all the problems. being freshman and 'normal people' is tough. my voice is like an ant screaming for help. *imagine that*

to be a leader, you should know how to influence you community. yes, i am definitely agree on that sentence. i learned that from one of my seniors when i was interviewed although you may heard it from other sources. and i still can remember, he said that a leader is not to be loved but also to feel being hated. undeniably, being a leader, needs sacrifice. in what way? in my opinion, a leader change your status in the community. being a leader, people starts to back stab you, 'just for fun'.and because you are the leader. you can be a friend of your friends when you were chosen to be a leader.but, you need a boundary when it comes to meeting purposes. and from there, they will think you are unlike before, who always give directions, so much disagrees and so on. hence, it will eventually create a situation where you are being hated, by your friends. yes, im also do feels that, just like your friends, shame on me. however, somehow i know you have to be like that as this is your sacrifice. it is just that you need time for 'us' to understand your situation. so then, it can be conclude that, a leader needs high patience.

it is really saddens when we condemn on each other while others are uniting for their right. how i wish we could be a family who can accept everyone's imperfection and guiding each other for better. amiin.

HENTIKAN PROVOKASI, BINAKAN KEAMANAN DAN KESEMPURNAAN.
hahaha. :))
the end!

reminiscence: picture do speak :)

2011-03-21T01:24:00.001+08:00

live happily and healthily at upm. :)

stress did come sometimes T.T

floormates.

floormates jugak.:)

Pearl Dinner 2011.

comel kan mereka? :)

could you see the before and after ? serious kilat tak hengat.

Kembara Iks 2011

lawa en replika masjid belakang tu? see with your own eyes at Taman Tamadun Islam (TTI) :)

this boy is getting loud and naughtier. but i just could stop cuddling with him. hehe;p

the budding scientists. insyaAllah :)

the end!

0.5 yang induce kedengkian.

2011-03-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Nilai 0.5 kalau dilihat dari segi matematik memang sangat kecil je nilainya kan. kalau lah lukis atas kertas graph kaler hijau yang selalu diguna dalam kelas maths, nilai beza 0.5 tu hanyalah sebesar satu kotak kecil je. kecik kan?
tapiii, kalau tengok dari segi academik, beza 0.5 tu sangaaaatttlah besar dan memberi impak yang berlainan. kalau orang kata negligible, tapi, yang ni sangat effect. aih.
sume students ipta pun tahu, in fact kat sekolah pun dah didedahkan dengan purata nilai gred, png,pngk sume kan. and paling tinggi nilainye adalah 4.00. ni kat malaysia lah. tak pernah pulak dengar ade budak dapat 4.5 nilai png/pngk die. heh!. kalau dapat 3.9 tu kire mmg bagus ahh. kalau 4.00 rata memang tersangat bagus lah. sebab org tu dianggap macam diberi nasi sepinggan habis sume dijilatnye tanpa kesan.fuhh.
tapi cheq ni lain pulak speciesnyeT.T. adei. bagi la nasi berpinggan pinggan compom den buleh habehkan, tapi png tak jugak naik naik. huhuu. dari dulu smpai la ni average je. cik nur zahidah bt zaidan, bila lagi nak dapat 3.8 ? 3.9 ke? 3.7 pun jadi lah(memang aku tahu bg org lain ni nilai png biasa je, tapi bg aku, luar biasa. hoho).. asyik duk atas pagar jer, bile nak menyeberang? tak berani ke? orang lain dah buat, bila lagi cik zahidah? *monologdalaman*. aiihh. kadang sedih jugak sebab fikir ‘apesaaaal la aku takleh lebih sikit’. ‘apesaaaalll la tak habis habis number yang sama je, takde number yang lebih menarik kee?’ dan bermacam macam lagi soalan ‘apesaaalll laa..’ aku. memang tak puas hati sangat sangat. huhuhuhuu.
tapi aku tak kata aku tak bersyukur to Allah for giving me such a result, i am soooo much grateful because he let me feel happy with the result though it is not great enough.” everytime i got my result, ‘3.67!! alhamdulilahh’. ‘ 5A 5B!. alhamdulilllahh’. ‘6A2B! alhamdulilaah mekacih Allah’. ‘3.45! alhamdulilah, usaha lagi’ ‘biotech at upm! oh upm jugak aku dapat, takde uni lain ke, tapi takpe, i believe in You, alhamdulillah’ and ‘3.5! average, alhamdulillahh’. did you seee the constant value? kan. and I FEEL SO MUCH GRATEFUL FOR NOT GETTING ANYTHING THAT IS WORSE THAN ABOVE. mintak mintak takde. amiiin.:)
i feel so much inspiration in people who always get high gpa/cgpa through his/her life in sch or uni. i’ve been wondering, what on earth are they had been doing to mantain their gpa/cgpa. padahal tengok banyak main jugak, tido dalam kelas, makan tak basuh tangan, sosial life terbaik dan macam macam lah. sume yang dorang buat aku pun buat jugak (except yg mkn tak basuh tgn tu lah:p) kadang kadang mau berkerut dahi dok pikiaq apekeheyy la depa buley cerdik camtu kan. tulah orang kata ‘born to be genius’ atau selalu kita cakap ‘rezeki dia’
bile aku berperasaan ‘dengki’ dengan makhluk cerdik ni, cepat aku berbalik pada Yang Satu:). ha ni tips untuk orang yang kuat dengki kat orang lain lah. haha. senang je, takpayah tunjuk tunjuk guna jari telunjuk yang buruk tu kat orang lain, sebab sedar tak sedar sebenarnya kite menunjuk 4 lagi jari kat diri kite sendiri. sooo, whatever happen, point it out to yourself first than others. lain orang lain la luh mahfuz dia kan. cakap pada diri sendiri ‘layak ke aku jadi macam depa yang tetap low profile walaupun dah dapat highest result?’. then, believe in your faith, what has been destine for you is the best for your life. insyaAllah. HE knows best. praise be to Allah. other than that, believe in your own potential, do it well next time, be open, keep terying, focus, don’t give up on your dreams, and most important thing is that, BE POSITIVE. :)

yeah yaaa, i know i kinda not following what i’ve been writing. but im trying to slow down my voice and get into action very loudly. pray for me ya? :) sedang mencuba study smart tapi mngantok dalam kelas still takleh hilang. haiiihh. setan ohh setann, apesall lah kau ni jahat sangat nii. hmm. dan vitamin Malas mmg dah ada dalam badan, takleh nak excrete out tapi inhibit boleh. tu pun kena ada inhibitor nye. dan saya dapat rasa badan saye mencuba untuk memproducekan inhibitor dalam badan nih. insyaAllah:). hahaha
k lah, nk smbung study, esok dua test. aarr. pray for me :)
KATAKAN ‘NAAAAYYHHH’ KEPADA ROKOK.
the end.
p/s : lama en tak update. busy+takde idea+takde mase punye pasal. hehe

simple thought.

2011-02-22T00:46:00.001+08:00

popularity is the side thing to be a leader. unknown people can also change the world’s mind. its unworthy if you put the hope for people to choose you but you don’t have the most important spirit to success. it is just like you have a car key without a car. you won’t go anywhere isn’t it. less speak action more. words will not make people remembering you. but the action that you have done to them will do.

the end

simple fact and it’s just hard to be accepted.

2011-02-17T02:51:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum.

the length of DNA is from earth to moon and back again to the earth.
if the distance between earth and the Moon = 384,403 kilometres (238 857 miles)
then,length of DNA is = 384,403 X 2

= 764, 806 kilometres ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

yet, DNA still can undergone replication without being tangled or being damage.

don’t get mistaken. this calculation is for the length of DNA of all human cells in body. :P

oke oke camni. based on my understanding (pening jugak dok cari dan kire pasal panjang DNA ni, mau
sejam aku telaah pasal ni jeh, tu pun tak cukup ilmu lagi T.T) :

1 cell = 23 chromosome

1 chromosome = 1 double stranded DNA

1 DNA = 2-3 meters (if it is uncoiled, maksudnye bile DNA tu dikembangkan kan)

habis sape pulak yang panjang from earth to the moon back again to the earth ?

haaaa i get confuse at first oso meh, but at last i found out that actually what the statement said was for the length of DNA of all human cells that joined together.

since 1 cell = 23 chromosome molecule,

23 chromosome = 3 meters DNA X 23 (IN A CELL)

human = 100 TRILLion cells in all part of the body

(part ni aku macam tak sure sebab banyak source berbeza estimation die, tapi aku amek yang mostly said lah kan , fuh banyaknyeee)

soooo, camne tu nak kire. lu pikir lah sendiri beb.

aku kira boleh dapat approximately 6.9 X 10^12 kilometres. haa amik kau. fuh, panjang tuuu kalau kite uncoiled kan sume DNA dalam setiap cell woo.

apepon, this is just an estmation je ;). how come we want to calculate the exact number of cells that exist in our body. mmg impossible lah kan. because different person has different total number of cells. it is all base on their sizes.

interesting kan? bayaanggkan betapa byk nye DNA dlm badan kite nih, and how does DNA yang 2, 3 meter panjang tu boleh compress jadi kecil sekecil cell yang hny boleh dilihat melalui compound microscope! fuh, i just couldnt say more. memang impressive. ni baru pasai panjang DNA je. belom masuk part genetic sume. lagilah incredible bertambah awesome. heh

love to learn about life because it reminds me about Him. SUBHANALLAH. ALLAHUAKBAR. sememangnya Maha Besar lagi Maha Bijaksana. :’)

thats all i guess. haha

p/s: almost put my hands up when Prof Raha asked “who want to be a geneticist ?”. but i asked back to myself internally, ”am i ready for the real adventure?”. i put down back my hands. glad that no one noticed it. hmm confidence is all i need.

the end,

FOR HER :)

2011-02-12T04:27:00.000+08:00

may not be the one who always be there for you when you need someone.
may not be the great coolest friend you ever have.
may not be a friend who can give you everything you want.
may not be a friend who can make a suprise for you and makes you smile perfectly.
may not be a friend who can completely understand your feelings.
may not be a friend that you want me to be.
may not be the one who have the same hobby with you.

may be the one whom you call me a person who always giving excuses.
may be the one who you think is the most annoying person you had ever have.
may be the one who always ignoring what you wish for.
may be a friend that doesnt listen to all your life experiences.
may be a friend that you don't want everyone knows that we are friends.

just to tell you that im just being myself. incomplete, imperfect, unpredictable, less cautious about you. but one thing you should certainly know about me, whenever you think you don't have any friends, remember me.

the end.

kamu baik baik saja kan? harapnye camtulah.

2011-01-31T18:13:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

ahh teruknya manusia nih. kalau dah orang taknak kau jadi pemimpin mereka, jadi kenapa kau desak lagi ? kenapa kau nak tegakkan benang yang basah? memang orang kata menjadi pemimpin untuk dibenci. tapi, kalau dah majoriti membenci kau, sampai buat demo dengan banner "berhenti jadi pemimpin kami" , "tamatkan ini", jadi apakah kebencian mereka takde motif?. menjadi pemimpin yang terbaik adalah pemimpin yang mengejar kebenaran. itu pemimpin yang sebenar ! tapi, kalau kau punca segala korupsi, perpecahan, penyelewengan dan penyekutu kepada orang yang paling dibenci islam, apakah kau nih pemimpin yang mencari kebenaran dan keadilan di negara kau ? oh tidak. sudah terang lagi bersuluh kan.

sudah tentu lah rakyat dan masyarakat di negara kau ni tak nak apa yang terjadi sekarang menjadi realiti. tapi, disebabkan rakyat kau yang lebih bijak dari kau, mereka terpaksa menempuh insiden seperti nih. alamatnya? alamatnya orang orang yang tak bersalah dan takde kena mengena dengan kerajaan kau, jadi mangsa. sebabnya? bukan berpunca dari rakyat kau yang kononnya digelar 'pengganas' oleh kau, tapi sebenar benar realiti fakta dunia yang tak dapat disangkal nih, kau lah pengganas dan punca kepada kekecohan dan darurat di negara kau. aduh, sedih bila baca berita pasal kesengalan kau. nak kata bodoh, tapi macam mana kau boleh jadi pemimpin mereka sampai 30 tahun? oh sesungguhnya aku nih tak cukup info lagi pasal kau. T.T takpelah, janji sekarang, rakyat di negara kau dah terhantuk kepala dan sedar dari lamunan bukan? Allah tahu semuanya.

sesiapa yang berapa nak faham ape yang tengah berlaku kat mesir tu, boleh la klik link kat bawah ni.

'krisis yang berlaku di mesir'

apa yang jadi kerisauan, ramai rakyat Malaysia yang ade kat sana. dan majoritinya pelajar YaAllah selamatkan dan lindungilah semua rakyat Malaysia yang ade kat sana. amiiinn. as if i were in their shoes, i would be terribly terrified. and im sure they are afraid of their fate there. insyaAllah, everything would be fine. insyaAllah. Allah s.w.t. will always be with them. korang jangan risau tau ! always pray the best for them. dengar dengar bekalan makanan disekat lah, banduan lebih kurang 5000 terlepas, rumah kena rompak, dan more worsen, ada pelajar Malaysia kena rogol? YaAllah, harap ni rumours je. huhuhuu. kesian nya kat mereka. airport, balai polis kena bakar, habis kepada siapa mereka nak mintak bantuan dan nak balik pun, flights all delayed. they stuck in the middle of angriness. :(

am hoping that Malaysia embassy is doing something. and i hope the goverment take note on this and concern about this. fikirkanlah macam mana nak bawak balik malaysian kat sana, dengan bekalan makanan takde lagi, kena rompak, banduan terlepas, oh takutnyee. kebanyakannya pelajar. all between my age je. for sure they are really terrified. T.T. kesian mereka. tapi aku tahu Allah pasti akan tolong mereka. insyaAllah.

dan harapnye kekecohan kat mesir tuh segera lah pulih. amiin

p.s : ini serius. tak kelakar langsung okeh

because i care,
the end

complicated thinking. :D

2011-01-30T13:29:00.000+08:00

TERLAJAK PERAHU BOLEH BERUNDUR, TERLAJAK KATA TAK DAPEK DEN NAK NOLONG.

haaa, tu peribahasa melayu yang dah diubah sikit tapi memberikan maksud yang sama. dan ayat2 di atas memang kena lah kat batang idung aku yang comel nih (T.T). tapi aku tak terlajak kata, aku terlajak ape ape jelah. susah lah macam nih. tulah, dulu kau main main lagi. kau tahu nak berubah tu susah dah kau masukkan diri dalam kesusahan, ha kan dah kena! huhuhuu. yaAllah tolong hambamu yang hina nih.

people said never take life seriously. and yeah, i do agree sometimes. but, when i wonder back on this sentence, my mind came out like this ''hah? never take life seriously, is that mean kita kena enjoy dan dont take serious on what happend around you?'' hmm. macam salah je konsep hidup kalau macam tu. habis nanti kalau everyone in this world, never take their life seriously, it means in future, our prime minister, and all pemimpin will not be as great as nowadays. buat decision without thinking the pros and cons. kalau salah, habis ! oh tidak ! aku taknak. tapi, aku bersyukur lah jugak sebab ada jugak manusia manusia yang digelar SKEM 'A' dalam generasi aku yang boleh jadi harapan pemimpin berjaya in future. kadang pun aku tension tgk skem A nih, sebab mereka macam perfect sangat.jealous youuu. dan semestinya aku tak layak. jadi penyokong je boleh ?

jadi ape perubahan yang aku cakapkan? mungkin usia semakin semakin lanjut menyebabkan si comel menjadi sedikit matang. oh ye kah? you decide. setakat aku rajin bace news online, facts article and so on does not mean that saya ni matang. kadang tu aku bosan, jadi aku bacalah. so what's the deal? sometimes i think it's beneficial. of course lah. :) jadi, sebenarnya aku ni tak capai lagi kot tahap kematangan yang maksima. aku nih suka main2 jugak. hikhikhikk (gelak macam kiddo).

eh kejap ! ape kena mengena dengan ayat atas sekali? haa tulah, banyak sangat benda si pemalu ni fikir. dah malas nak fikir lagi.

ps : take road less taken, cause that will make you special. people will not understand you, but you heart does. so go on.

the end

simple thoughts

2011-01-15T23:00:00.003+08:00

siapa kata pemandu bus takde ilmu pengetahuan yang tinggi?

kalau kau orang fikir macam tu, teeettt! salah. pakcik bus kat upm arini really really amaze me because he knows each name of the trees dalam upm ni. bukan setakat tu je, sampai funtion function pokok, akar, daun pon dia tahu. ish pakcik,saya rasa pakcik sebenarnye pakcik boleh kerja dengan jabatan perhutanan negara tau. sebab pakcik boleh dikira superb lah dalam bidang pokok ni. kalau aku, aku rasa pokok tu ada daun kaler hijau, batang dan akar. kalau ade matahari dan air, pokok hidup, kalau tak cukup nutrients, mati. tu je tahu. nama nama pokok tak pulak nak tahu apatah lagi benefit pokok tu kan . heee.

taktau lah kot kot aku kena tipu dengan pakcik tu ke apa kan. tapiii, memang patutlah pakcik tu tahu selok belok pasal pokok ni. sebab die kata die dulu orang asli. ''alaaaaa, yang pakai cawat tu. ha tu pakcik la tuu'', kata pakcik itu. dulu muda remaje dulu die orang asli, tapi tak sempat pulak nak tanya macam mana dia immigrate sampai boleh jadi pemandu bus upm yang peramah :). sebab waktu tu dah sampai kolej. kalau boleh taknak turun bus tu, nak dengar pakcik tu cerita. hahah. aku kalau bab bab benda baru ni memang terlebih excited nak dengar. hahah. muka pakcik tu pun ade lah jugak ala ala orang asli. heee. eh betul lah! tak tipu.

''The Orang Asli people, north of Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, were studied by geneticists who traced their mitochondrial DNA from Africa.'' -New York Times Company.

i just googled and i saw this picture. Prof Tan, my genetic's lecturer had already mention us about this. that we originated from Africa?

tiba tiba teringat soalan cepumas Profesor Dr Raha binti Abdul Rahim,antara bacteria dengan manusia, siapa lagi bijak? pastu dia sambung lagi yang memberi maksud ini, orang asli sinonim dengan kekampungan, lack of civilisation dan pendidikan. mereka duduk dalam pedalaman dan mencari hasil hutan untuk sara hidup. tapiii, agak agak, kalau orang bandar yang kononnye pandai semua perkara sebab banyak technology bagai, tapii, agak agak, kalau orang bandar masuk hutan, boleh survive ke? fikir fikirkan dan selamat beramal!.

simple idiom can be use as conclusion,
don't judge a book by its cover.

the end

delete friends from facebook : so putus kawan ke?

2011-01-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

heyya! ini entry serious. SANGAT serious. because I CARE. hmm

nak cerita ni. apa pendapat korang kalau kawan kau orang bukan lah setakat kawan network je, kalau kawan network tarak hal lah. sebab macam takde effect pun en. tapi ni macam kawan dah lama punya kenal dari kedut tak nampak sampai kedut dah nampak dah ni kat muka tetiba 'hilang' dari friends list kau dalam facebook. so apa response?

what is probably your answer when you realise someone kick you out from friends on facebook? yeaaaa, i know, it's FACEBOOK. sebab it is only facebook lah aku rasa macam, laaaa perlu ke? kelakar betul. haih

klik untuk tumbesaran.

sedih woo. sedih. macam macam fikir macam mana lah boleh jadi macam ni. kitorang dah plan dah nak have a visit this month. bukan tak nak singgah pun. bukan tak ingat langsung. adoiai. tapi after this thing happen, hmm, we're going to think very wisely. macam dah benci sangat jeeee. hm. susah betul kalau bertindak mengikut emosi ni. very dissappointed. come on lah. :(

whatever it is, i don't want the flame to burst even more. i just want to say that we (me and my friend) are deeply terribly honestly truely sorry for our wrongdoings. we had never forget you. we seriously have some other plans but you make things complicated. haih. sorry again. you are still our friends. but it's up to you to take us as your friends anymore or not.

sad. T.T

the end

new semester

2011-01-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

1. dah guna esmp baru. i likee. sistematik and user friendly. in addition, i don't need to go to my fac department asking for them to register my course exceeding 18 credits. plus, i can know how much i should pay for this semester. tak payah ribut ribut lagi. hehe :D

2. i have THREE different practical class on different subject. habislah nyah. isnin selasa rabu is going to be my busy day finishing up all the reports. takpe takpe, positive zahidah. boleh punya. insyaAllah :)

3. i caught a damned sick itchy rashes all over my hands and legs. oh i hate this part. i don't blame anybody or the kukem program because it was something that should be remembered though. doakan saya kembali sembuh tanpa sebarang parut er. huhuu. :l

4. i met wonderful people this past few weeks. and i am wondering whether we could be more than just a team mates. hoping the friendship bond will be tighten. amin

5. subjects for this semester is all related to each other. topics seems to be hard, but, i believe, i can do this. Allah doesn't burden us with things we cannot bear isn't it? p.s : i love my genetics lecturer. he kinda funny when giving his lecture. sebijik macam seorang bapa yang tengah story telling dekat anaknya. hehe best best :)

6. my perception towards ktdi has changed. i guess so :p. i dont wanna tell more, just let it go with the flow.

p.s : will write an entry about kukem.

blogwalking : his blog is the best of all :)

2010-12-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum !

ps: entry ni panjang. rajin la sikit baca er. jangan putus asa! erk, takde kena mengena.:D

rajin betul si pemalu ni update belog er. hehe yelah, my holiday lasts only a week ni je. hmm. touching :(. orang lain lagi dua minggu. aku seminggu ni je ada. macam tak puas lah. takpe, nanti masuk upm boleh ronggeng ronggeng lagi. mak abah ~~tak tahu~~ tak kisah punyee. heh :p.

okay taknak cite pasal studies sekarang boleh takk? nak enjoy je lepastu nak kerja senang or takpayah kerja pun tak apa tapi duit masuk sampai boleh lah beli banglo 5 bijik atleast, dekat area Hawaii, yang paling dekat. boleh? :D and then dalam bangalow tuh ada satu ruang besar untuk gym je and gym appratus semua baru and always uptodate. asal keluar barang baru, barang lama buang, beli baru. pergh what a wonderful life yeah? jangan berangan ! >:-l

okay, berbalik kepada motif entry ni, when everybody has a blog account, like me, dorang mesti akan blogwalking jugak kan. dulu masa first first join blog ni macam tak tahu sangat dunia blogger, ceh nama nak gempak. BLUEK! lepastu bila dah lama, macam sekarang, baru macam faham sikit. loading gila en aku ni. heh. yelahh, mana sempat sangat nak explore blogspot ni. dulu facebook terbaik, sekarang facebook ondaway nak terbalik, so sebelum karam, haruslah aku pindah ke blogspot. wehuuu! ada blog cite pasal masakan, aku suka tu. from blog camtu lah aku tahu yang ada muffin maggi. korang tau? muffin diperbuat dari maggi. yee tuan tuan puan sekalian, MAGGI, mee segera yang students selalu makan tu. okay i seem shocked sebab baru tahu pasal ni weh! heee :D ada jugak blog informative. yeah, i like that!. atleast aku duduk rumah ni walaupun aku tak bukak buku science tapi aku dapat jugak sikit ilmu lain yang berfaedah kann.

macam satu blog ni, dia ni anti-MLM. so, dia reveal la every single thing of any bussiness company that seems to be suspicious and menyalahgunakan MLM. memang roughly we see a man who is jealous yang punya hasad dengki menggunung kat company yang buat MLM(since dia sendiri mangaku dia anti-mlm kan). tapi tapi tapii, kalau baca blog dia, i don't see any of that attitude. i see a man who is trying to save his community from this kind of bullshit. dia kata dia sedih tengok kaum dia kena tipu bulat bulat dengan syarikat yang asalnya dari neraka jahanam. especially orang kat kampung sana. lagi sedih bila dia tengok kaum dia sendiri yang memusnahkan kaum dia. ni bukan aku cakap, ni dia yang cakap oke. saya budak baik mana cakap kasar kasar macam ni. tehehe. takpe, biar kasar asal ada pointnye disitu. very sarcastic yet something that we should to think about it. contohnye macam gelang magnet ac mizal yang mahal gila nak mampus dia jual padahal dia beli murah jeee. hek elee. one good thing about him is that, dia ni bukan setakat duk kutuk caci merba je dengan syarikat jahaman berkenaan, tapi dia siap buktikan dengan segala benda weh. togel habis lah. memang kena la dengan aku sebab aku suka kalau ada bukti camni, ala ala CSI. hahah. siap dengan hadith and ayat ayat quran, since he is a muslim. dia terangkan segala jenis riba' dalam islam sampai aku pun berbelit nak faham. heh i like that. i think semua orang pun tahu pasal dia ni, tapi aku memang saje nak share sebab aku nak orang lain baca jugak and fikir fikirkan.

i am a university student. kat upm pun ada je iklan orang suruh jadi downline semua bagai. berlambak iklan dah bertampal kat bus stop tuh. so aku assume aktiviti macam ni dah lama ada dalam university, entah berapa ramai dah kena tipu atau dah makan duit haram. adoi. harapnye si pemalu ni tak lah macam tu er. amiinn.:) walaupun aku macam takde kena mengena sangat dengan MLM ni, sebab saya masih seorang kanak kanak pemalu yang setahun jagung je dalam universiti yang berangan nak kerja dalam csi, tapi sekurangnya saya boleh lah bersiap sedia kan untuk masa depan, kot kot angin syaitonirrajjiim menyerang saya untuk buat benda tak elok macam ni, bolehlah ingat balik pesanan ~~abang~~ ~~atuk~~ uncle anti-MLM ni. mungkin sekarang saya masih blur blur tikus, tapi saya dah boleh lah faham ape itu MLM. dulu saya ingat MLM tu shortform untuk MALAM, tapi selepas baca blog uncle ni, baru tahu MLM tu multi-level marketing, skim pyramid and segala berkaitan dengan itu. seek knowledge from the cradle to grave, right? :)

p.s: apa ingat aku loading sangat ke sampai aku taktau MLM tu shortform untuk apa ha? grr :)

owh anyone yang taktahu lagi dia ni siapa and tak pernah baca any of his entry, bolehlah pegi blog aididmuaddib. bukan nak promote tapi nak invite orang lain baca and think about all of his opinion. we don't need to believe everything on what others said, but we should hear others opinion. from there, we judge it ourself. oh btw, entry dia ni panjang panjang sampai penuh satu page. so kena la rajin sikit kalau nak dapat knowledge kan. :)

the end.

this is sick : bukan 2 bukan 8 tapi 28 ! & pesanan buat si kemaruk cinta

2010-12-21T00:30:00.000+08:00

hmm. tak suka la kalau tengok berita pasal excident ni. sebab orang lain yang excident, aku pulak yang rasa trauma huhu. arhh tolonglah do something. takut lah nak naik bus walaupun jarang naik bus untuk travel mana mana.

nanti ahad ni ade pegi kukem. Dalam surat tak bagitau kat mana (sengal en? nak bagitau mak pun susah sebab taktahu lokasinye kat mana), kalau dalam kolej je, then its okay lah. tapi kalau jauh tah kemana nak pegi, naik bus. erkkkk takutnyeee. huhu. tapi fikir fikir balik, ajal maut jodoh pertemuan sume ni atas tangan Tuhan kan. tak semestinya akan meninggal kalau naik bus. kat mana mana pun ajal boleh berlaku. hmm, takutnye. yaAllah ampunkanlah dosa kuu. :(( kesian dekat mangsa kemalangan bus tuh. semoga roh mereka tenang dan aman.

lagi satu berita pathetic ni, aku tak paham betul dengan orang gila yang sesat duduk malaysia ni. mental illness betul !. asal perempuan tu tolak cinta nafsu kau je, kau simbah asid. apadehal ?. tolonglah. tolonglah. tolonglah !! where is your dignity ? come on. there is lots of wonderful fishes in the wide ocean. come on! macamlah kau simbah asid kau dapat apa kau nak. tak kan ? jel dan baju lokap je kau dapat free. TU JE ! >:( sekarang simbah asid ni jadi trend pulak. trend cinta kena reject. erghh sick of this.

nasihat tegar dari budak pemalu yang sedang marah : kalau kena reject tu, relax okay. cool down. pandang cermin, cakap kat diri sendiri 'i deserve someone that is better than her'. lepastu takyah kacau lagi perempuan tuh. doakan dia happy dengan orang lain. MOVE ON. haa tu orang putih cakap.

this is serious. ini serius. this is serious. ini serius. this is serious.

because i care.

the end

50 Bloggers Diperlukan II

2010-12-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

woot wooot!

ini first time join benda alah macam ni. mula mula join blogspot tak pernah pernah nak masuk any contest atau promosi blog ke apa. heee. so harini macam rajin pulak nak bersosial melalui blog. since lately macam rajin betul blogwalking. i should congratulate blogspot because being in my first cool place to be visited. kalah facebook! pergh. sumpah tak tipu. ;)
lepas tu terjumpa pulak 100penulis. macam best. sebab admin tu bukak senarai untuk join blogroll. since aku ni pun macam newbie yang tak newbie lah sangat kan, so nak la jugak test market. hehehee. tapi saya ni pemaluuu laa. saya malu la jadi centre of attraction, camne niiiiii. alaaa. hihihiiik

blueek! boleh muntah sekarang dengan kegedikkan saya. takpe, muntah dalam ni pun takpa. saya dah hire cleaner. cleaner tu awak la! :D

so, sesapa yang rasa macam nak join blogroll yang boleh naikkan traffic boleh la join di SINI.

aku kalau blogwalking, aku start blogwalking kat blog ~~jiran~~ kenalan terdekat. dekat tak dekat sangatlah kan. means kawan sekolah, matrik atau kat universiti, dan family. sebabnya aku ni memang ~~busy body~~ ambik berat pasal mereka. dorang je macam amik tak amik berat pasal aku. tsk tskkk. alaahh, touching pulak. dah dah. dorang busy tu, kau sabar je. kau chill je okay hee

so ni lah antara budak best aku stalk setiap hari :

1. budak yg suka bermain minda aka minda kiddo
2. budak yg suka bergossip aka anis hanani

i think i'm pregnant . :'(

2010-12-15T17:46:00.001+08:00

hukhukhukk. i'm so sorry. i didn't mean to tell this publicly. but, this is the only chance for me to let others know how regret am i about this. and i'm afraid to tell anyone. i'm afraid of being scold. :( and i really really hope our teenagers out there to think wisely before do or take anything, especially when it count on your fate.

so, here is my story.i don't know how to start. i don't know what to do. i have no one to depend with. i am sooo damn regret with what i have done to my body. i know it's wrong for doing that. but, i can't control my self. :(. i just love to take it as my routine. this tells why i did not updating my entry lately. but now, i know it's kinda late for regretting it. uwaaaaa ! but, i know, i know i can. yes! ABORTION! buuttt, who's going to accompany me? him? argh! forget it. he is now forgetting me for his friends out there. damn. this is what malay said, 'habis madu sepah dibuang'. :'(

i still can remember, last month. it was examinations week. and it was my birthday. on 9th november, we went out to celebrate it. but somehow i don't know, we were extremely enjoying ourself. i get addicted and tried to ignore about all the risk that would come. NOW, what i think, i'm pregnant.

NOOO! what the hell are you thinking ? i am not expecting a baby. seriously, urgh. you dirty minded! :p what i was saying is that i'm expecting a glump of fats! yes, FATS! this fat belly makes me like a pregnant people. urghhh. yela mana taknye, cuti ni asyik makaaaannn je. and i dont blame anybody because i just can't help it! heh. nak jogggiiiinngg. uwaaaaaaaaaaaa.

don't understand enough? here to this song, by Soko! i like this song. silly lyric i've ever heard. :P

i think i'm pregnant - Soko

ha tulaahh. lain kali nak makan tu berpada pada. jangan ikot nafsu jer. heh. ye ye memang senang nak nasihat orang, nak nasihat diri sendiri tu yang susah. heeee :D

p.s : cerita diatas hanya mitos semata mata okay. i just felt that im fat and i found this song, so saje nak buat dramatic yang tak berapa nak berdrama sangatlah. heh. uwaaaaaa! nak kurruussss!

when i bump into my past

2010-12-07T15:54:00.001+08:00

woot woot!

yesterday, i found back my old diarieS. yes with ‘S’. i kinda have about 3 to 4 books of diaries. but i never finished all of them. hahah. sengal en. tah ape ape jeee. tahun tu, dapat buku diary, ok time tu bajet kata ‘okay aku nk buat buku ni jadi my diary’. setahun selepas tu, dapat buku baru.. ‘okay, ini yang paling last! buku ni permanently jadi my diary book’. poyo je. in the middle of year, ade lagi buku baru. hahah. ;D

semalam dok kemas barang, jumpa all the books. yang paling kelakar aku siap seal lagi satu buku tu konon taknak orang lain baca. walaupun aku rasa orang lain dah baca kot sebab aku memang suka letak barang sana sini. sengal en. tu la, aku dah cakap, aku ni comel orangnye. orang comel memang macam ni. errk, takde kena mengena.-.- hahah argh! gedik betul. busy body je orang yang baca tu. eh ada sesapa terasa ke? hands up! :p

eh eh jangan gosok gosok mata. memang gambar ni sengaja dibuat blur. hehe. laahh, dah nama pun diary, mestilah kena rahsiaaa. :p. buruk dah diary nii. bukan buku ni buruk. gambar ni memang sengaja di burukkan sebab konon nak nampak lama. hehe what i mean is, tulisan. buruk gilaa. hehe. asal frust je tulis, frust je tulis. errggh. ni baru some part je. :D bila baca balik, memang kelakar la kann. tapi ada jugak macam sedih sikit. huhu. bagus ada diary ni. it reminds you of your oldies and teaches you to take caution on whatever you do. macam Shontelle cakap dalam song Impossible dia, die take caution when it comes to love. so aku lebih kurang laaa tapi bukan love saje okay. hehee.

AHAH! nampak tak arrow biru tu? nampak tak? aku pun tak faham kenapa aku tulis fone number dalam buku diary ni. memang TAK FAHAM-.- . tulahh, kadang kadang weirdness muncul secara tiba tiba. bila tengok balik, diri sendiri tak faham kenapa. bahahah. maluu lah ;D. tapi aku rasa aku bagus apa. errkk.;p bukan apa. bila aku baca balik semua contengan aku dalam diary ni, aku memang boleh flash back, remember semua balik, with NO DOUBT. kira penulisan aku ni teratur dan sistematik lah kan. except that phone number. heh !. cuma aku ni buat kerja separuh jalan. tak go on writing diary ni. tehee:D

ada dalam satu diary tu, which is the most latest one, aku siap list down lagi apa aku belajar dalam satu program sekolah organised. sesapa yang dulu sekolah dengan aku mesti ingat program Smart Solat. dalam diary ni aku list kan perkara yang boleh batalkan solat, yang makruh solat, tak boleh solat. heh. pastu sekarang baca balik, tersengih sengih sambil cakap dalam hati ‘bagus jugak aku ni’.:p

haaa kan dah cakap aku ni sistematik orangnya (kadang angkat bakul sendiri bagus sebab tak susahkan orang lain tau! :p) . siap tandatangan dengan smiley tunjuk lidah berliur, dengan tarikh and waktu aku berhenti tulis siap dengan tambah tolak lagi tuuu. yang paling best, quote tu. nampak tak? until now, saya suka quote itu, because it’s a fact :)

oh tak tunjuk lagi diary yang aku seal tu. betulll tak tipu. kejap kejap !

*godek godek pictures*

tadaaa! hehe. diary ni yang paling lama dijumpai,so far. taktau la kot kot kemas kemas ada lagi diary yang lagi tua.heh time ni waktu akhir form 3 awal form 4. you have seen the front page. so memang sah sah la aku takkan share sini contentnye.hehe walaupun kadang kadang firasat saya merasakan dah ada orang baca:(. errgghh. malaaas nak fikir. heh.

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crapppy patty : seharian with Peachy :D

2010-12-01T23:23:00.001+08:00

woot wooott!

oke this is the second time I'm using windows live writer. and I’m loving it! okay tiru mcD. sebab makan mcD petang tadi. heh !

so. lately, I’ve been here and there. busy but okay. hahah:p. semalam takde kerja nak buat. so buat kerja. amik gamba Peachy banyak banyak. semak dah dalam phone tuh. aihh. so today, ade masa ~~terbuang~~ terluang, aku pon edit konon nak buat comic. wah banyak betul benda baru belaja cuti ni. buku biotech taknak bukak tapi benda benda camni rajin. adoi. takpelaaa, hobby kan. KONON. :P

tadaaa. ini dia hasil kerja seorang amateur. :D memang effect on each picture tak sama. ade yang effect comicnye terlebih ade yang kurang. heh ! dah nama pon not professional and unskilful. hehe. takpe, practice makes perfect. and insyaAllah next time the comic will be more interesting. kesian Peachy jadi test tube experiment. hehe.

eh Peachy nak boyfriend? amboi, mengada. tunggu lah majikan Peachy tu belikan bf Peachy er. atau orang lain nak bg present lagi keee kan. tehee :p

sayang Peachy. kesian dia. dulu kena abandoned dan duduk dalam almari bersama sama bears yang sangat scary (T.T). now, die telah berjaya menawan hati seorang kanak kanak comel. hee;p. and Peachy just can’t stop smiling. ofcourse! heh. siap letak bunga bunga lagi kat senyuman die. this is why she is SO much special to me. :)

p.s : tekanlah picture comic tu kalau nak tahu kat mana aku buat comic ni.

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tuduhan : saya benci kucing? hmm

2010-12-01T01:33:00.000+08:00

grrrrr grrRRR .(suara ala ala kucing cari gaduh) siapa kata aku benci kucing hah?

cakap baik baik sikittt. aku tak BENCI kucing. ish isshh. improper betul lah nyah. benci dan geli mempunyai maksud yang sangat berbeza okay. geli dan takut pun mempunyai maksud yang sangatt berbeza. tetapi mempunyai intermediate antara dua. heh !

SOOO.. conclusionnye, aku ni adalah intermediate antara geli dan takut. dan sekeras keras batu nye aku tegaskan aku tak BENCI kucing. okay? cume kadang kadang aku rasa tercabar dengan miaw miaw. aku gedik, dia pon nak gedik gedik jugak. menyaaaammpaahh. tapi, sekali lagi, sekalii lagi aku tegaskan setegas cikgu disini, bahawa aku tak BENCI kucing.

alalalaa comell kan kucing ni? oh before that, this picture was stolen from adila azman's facebook. tehehee. :D his name is Coffee. dila loves coffee. she even willing to kill her neighbour's cat for disturbing her cutie pie. don't ask if she had really done that. information from facebook aint always true, right? hehe

oh futhermore, aku pon ade pet kucing jugak. yang best nye kucing aku ni, die boleh jadi female and male. puh-leaseee dia bukan she-male okay. but i assume this pet as a female. because she is too cute to be male. heh !. lagi satu, die tak mencakar, kuku pon takde. hello! bukan cacat okay. tapi special. :) i called her Peachy. because she has orange peach fur colour. seee, fur die pon dah menunjukkan specialties die kan. kau ada? heee. and to make it more special, i don't bought it. some one give it to me. weeeeeeee (sambil ballet ala ala princess kena reject)

tadaaaaaaaaaa. presenting. Peachy. alahai gediknye lah nama kau dik. nak buat camne dah majikan kau pun gedik. hehe.:p seee seeee! she is sooooo much special to me. actually, she had been abandoned by me (shame on me) for a long time. but i don't know, one day hati terbuka kembali untuk menerima Peachy. hahaha. bukak almari, tengok, eh eh ade bear lah. ehhh, ada Peachy. taknak keluarkan bearS untuk elakkan kontroversi :p, so tariklah Peachy keluar.

'yeaaaahh, i can see you back, world!' kata Peachy dalam hati.

Peachy was 'born' on 2007 or earlier. kan. lama gila aku tak usik Peachy. kesian dia. she was my birthday present when i was... uhm. form berapa tah. form 3 kot. heh. tak ingat. oh lupa. ini bukan birthday present dari boyfriend ke apa. she was taken and bought from a shop or a kilang(i am just guessing) by my oldersister. watson maybe;p. but who caresss where were you came from Peachy, as long i am so happy to have you in my life! yeahh. hehe:D

now me and Peachy sleep with my new(very) comfortable blue coloured pillow beside me. heee

p.s : the pillow is much more special too, ya-know. ;)

the end.

special @ sepesel : 9 november.

2010-12-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

woot woott
hari ini tepat lah last day untuk bulan november. dan saya baru mahu cerita mengenai 9 november. urgh. pedulik apa. sukahati la. saya pon suka hati nak bercerita mengenai 9 november ni. hehe

on this date. was born the cutest girl ever in world. she has a superpower. high pitch voice. it is believed that the baby had ate a speaker when she still at the moon. how? don't go to hospital to ask about it. otherwise, you will be send to Hospital Bahagia.

fair skin colour and weighed 3.57 when she was born. now, based on writer's knowledge. the cutest baby has reached her age of 19 years old this year. it was learned that the 'baby' doesn't have any fair skin anymore just like when she was born. the csi investigator reported to hospital that she had gone through under the Sun for many times make her skin's melanocytes activated. Until now, she was being accused of having dark skin like a 'Pak Tam'. but it was denied by wikileaks. ''it wasnt true AT ALL. the person must be jealous with her cuteness'', they said.

the teenager now live healthy, ALHAMDULILAH. and always being grateful to Allah for giving her chance to live. and prays that she will live with the guidance of her god. Allah s.w.t.. insyaAllah. she has a high performance sensitive chip. this chip can not be found anywhere. so it is believed that if viruses invade the chip, only her have the antibody and fix it up. that makes her so special. and this brings her to be on the list of ''Weirdest People You Have Seen. Click Here To Put Them on The List'' yes. you click it now.

she is wondering. what would her future will be. hoping it will be as bright as others want it be, too. she is now pursuing her degree in biotechnology. she always dreaming that one day, she will be one of the researcher in biotechcorp laboratory. she believe, if she put more effort and be more serious with her studies, one day she will be success! to infinity andddd beyyoond..!

recently, the cutest baby who now the comelest teenage ever had contacted us saying that she is very thankful for what she have. weird sisterS, which she believe she get the weird gene from them. lovely parents,. and big family, grandpas, grandmas. funny uncles, loud aunties which she,also, believe to get the gene from them and cousins. :D

AND also. the her bestest friendS who always be there when she needs a shoulder to cry on. especially to people who always be patient when she act weirdly SOMETIMES, care for her and also makes her happy. she appreaciates their existence and prays that one day, her bestfriend and herself will be bless by Allah s.w.t and be guide by Allah s .w.t in the right path.
amiinnn.

the end.

hello

2010-11-30T12:26:00.001+08:00

testing testung testong ! wehuuuu. hehe. mesti korang heran ape bende yang testnye ni kan. heheh.

well.. technology dah maju. im testing writing my entry using windows live writer. alaaaa yang pernah dicanang canangkan oleh blogger profesional. ceh. aku ni tak profesional pon berangan gak ni nak gune windows live writer.:D hehe senang sikit kan. boleh update anytime anywhere with or without internet. then boleh set bila kite nak publish. wehuuuu. macam best.

oke dah dah malas nak bebel panjang. nak try post. then wanna see how this windows brings much more benefit to me.:D

wahhh picture pon boleh edit lebih advance dari blogger. boleh letak nak shadow ke tak ke. source picture pon boleh letak. so takpayah la nak cakap ‘ihsan google’ ke apa. hehehe.

oke tuddles!

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remeniscene : nur nabilah isza binti ismail ja'far

2010-11-22T15:41:00.001+08:00

hahaha. as i promised. sorry lambat gila nak update blog pasal kau. but but, you never fade from my life. love you bieelaa :)) so... this post especially written to talk all about nur nabilah isza binti ismail ja'far. pergh nama tu memang dari dulu tak boleh belaahh. panjang tak ingat . hahah. kalau aku ingat kad ic mungkin dah tulis dalam ni kan. :p

anywayyy, thank you sooooo much sebab datang melawat kami budak budak upm. mwaaahh! kesiian tau. banyak benda berlaku. seb baik sampai jugak ke destinasi yang dituju. hehe. aku masih terfikir, macam manaaa la kau naik bus boleh sesat sampai kolej 17 which is far away from kolej aku. hahah. seb baik la mak skandal (waktu tu) kau datang amik dan hantar ktdi. macam mana mak dia boleh tolong waktu tu, kau je yang tahu. heheh. tapi dapat jumpa kejap je. :( sebab waktu tu pun mcm dah petang kan. nak balik dengan segera takot mak abah kau marah. huhu. kejap sangat. but apepun, really appreciate your effort nak datang upm. :)

jeng jeng jeng. tup tupp duduk msu dah ade secret admire. fuyoohh cepatnyaa. hahah now dah declare er? huhu. jangan nakal3. behave yourself yer. hehe. sapa nama? afiq kann. jangan suka gaduh gaduh tau. kurangkan bad attitude dan cemelangkan diri kat msu. cewaahh. macam mak tiri bagi nasihat pulak. tehehee.

tadaaa. hahaha. time hujan. memang under one umbrella. ceh cehh.:p

nanti ada masa dan peluang aku datang msu k. jumpa pqa sekali. insyaAllah. :)

last but not least, thanks for the visit. do come again. hehehe

P/S : saje taknak bgtahu kau pasal entry. kena tahu sendri. pastu nnti bgtahu aku yang kau dah tahu k.? haha:p

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reminiscene : bakti siswa

2010-11-22T14:48:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

WOOT! WOOT !! memandangkan saya mempunyai banyak masa ~~terbuang~~ terluang, ingin saya share perkara perkara yang istimewa berlaku sepanjang setengah tahun di upm ini.

hahah
well, sape yang taktahu bakti siswa tu apa. sume orang macam tak faham kenapa bakti siswa diwujudkan. objektifnye konon nak meningkatkan KI (kemahiran insaniah) dalam mahasiswa/i. aku pon taktau kenapa aku macam tak suka bakti siswa. . ? bosan sikiiiit kot. sebab duduk dalam kelas je. belaja slide after slide. pasal 7 KI upm students should have before they graduate.

tapi yang menariknye, bakti siswa ni ada outdoor activity. kan best kalau lebih kepada outdoor rather than sit and warm the chair while listening to the instructor's speech. dari situ real KI kita boleh dapat kan. gotong royong haritu seriously memang memberi impact yang great sangat. one of the moral is that, jagalah kawasan perumahan even luar rumah sekali pun. huhu dan lagi satu, kalau nak build up body tu, agak agak la. kenapa saya kata macam ni.? klik sini.

ish dah dahla membebel. menyaaammpahh lah. hahah. mari tengok gambar yang sempat di senapp.:)

oh ini bukan dari camera aku. ni from tiara's. kat dewan tetibe kena attend launching hari pengguna pe jadah tah ? takde kena mengena dengan kami. haha

tadaaa. the next day. pergi gotong royong kat taman serdang jaya. depan aku tu la instructor kami, encik muhd izwan muhamad.

ecececeeehh poyoonyee konon excitd dah nak bergotong royong. ( this caption is for me okay :)

sambil sambil, bolh lagi ambil gambar hahah. padahal waktu ni, longkang ni busuk tak hengat. macam macam organism boleh jumpa dalam ni. ahah

haaaa tengok. air kopi dalam longkang. agak agak kalau minum rasa kopi tak? ewwwww. busuuuk weh. benci betul benda yang berteraskan kebusukan camni. rajinn tuu. untung bakal suami. hahaha

haa ni adalah satu contoh yang baik. camni la kalau nak cari suami, cari macam die ni, tolong pegang barang barang kawan perempuan dia. kan bagus camni.:p

next week nyee. post mortem dan jamuan akhir. yeayy dapat giflt. at least i got something to be remembered kan for bakti siswa ni. tengok cik wan dapat lagi besaarrr punya. lawa lawa :)

eheh. macam anak dengan bapak pulak sekali tengok. dah suruh buat buat konon tengah baca, aku pun buat la kan. tetiba macam aku sorang je yang buat. adoi. tapi suka gamba ni. sebab my face angle macam best, kan?:p

last but not least, with syikin. gmba ni satu je edit. yang lain, maalaas nak layan. hahah.

p.s: yang tengah exam tu keep holding on okay. hehe.

the end.

the very important day of my life.

2010-11-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

hooreey ! its a holiday ! sem satu selesai sudah. kini tiba waktu bercuti sebelum masuk semester two. yeaaah this is the time. to relax. and not to worry about studies. hee. tapi nanti result keluar mesti tekanan balik. tidakk. i hope my result not that bad. heh.

and and i got somehow i call it a bad news for me. where i had been selected to attend a camp organise by my college. aaaaarrr, benci benci. tak dapat cuti lama mcm budak lain. now tengah fikir, nak pergi je or ignore it. karang kena dimerit habislah merit aku yang cukup makan tu jadi negative value pulak. nanti tak tentu pasal aku kena tendang. mana nak duduk? ulang alik dari rumah ? habis, susah la aku nak buat discussion malam malam kan. huh. banyak betul consequences nye. kalaulah aku bela doreamon, boleh tanya about future so that i can make a right decision. kan? eh takboleh takboleh. nanti life tak ada adventure la kan. nanti dah ada anak, nak cerita kat anak pun tak best. imagine. . .

anak : mama! mama!, kem kepimpinan tu macam mana?

mama : uhm. . . . . . (alamakkk macam mana aku nak explain ni. last camp aku pegi waktu aku form 2 je. tu pun aku tak ingat kat mana and buat apa tah. .? aaahhh, buat buat tak dengar je laa.)

15 minit kemudian ,

anak : MAMA !! dengar takk ape anak tanya nii. kawan kawan anak sume dapat pergi. tapi kenapa dia orang tak suka? apa perasaannye mama? menakutkan ke? ada tiger jahat ke mama? MAMA! MAMA!!!

mama : . . . . . . . . (aiseyy terasa aku. anak aku ni, bila tak dapat voice box, kemain excited aku ajar ABC, bila dah pandai bercakap aku rasa tergugat pulak. adoi)

anak : MAMA MAMA ! MAMA!

mama : anakk, pergi tanya abah. mama busy nak masak nasi goreng usa untuk abah ni. ;)

abah : alaaa anak, mama kau tu bukan busy pun. dia dulu selalu lari dari benda benda macam tu. lembiikk. sebab tu badan comel sangat.

mama : sayang ! janganlah bongkarkan rahsia. eleeeeeehhhhh dulu siapa yang first supporter tak kasi orang pergi kem tu haa? konon nak date and luang masa dengan mama. huhh

anak : . . . . . . . .(tak paham aku dengan parents aku nii.-.- )

jadi conclusion, mama abah dan anak makan nasi goreng usa dengan enaknya dan anak masih lagi bertungkus lumus membuat research menggunakan teknologi IT yang diajarkan abahnya untuk mengkaji 'kenapa budak budak benci untuk pergi kem kepimpinan' under supervision by mama.

HAHAHAHA. :)

aku taknak jadi mama yang takde knowledge. soooo.. masih tak menjawab adakah aku pergi atau tak kem tu. nanti aku fikir. hehe. yang penting sekarang tengah cuti dan relaxing je kann. :)

bye.

p.s : dialog diatas tidak ada kena mengena dengan sesiapa. cume di serapkan sedikit unsur unsur reality penulis. namun situasi berkenaan tidak pernah berlaku dan tidak akan berlaku. cewaahh :p

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another simple entry :)

2010-11-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

i googled for some nice picture and found this picture. i thought, it'll be nice if i put it in my blog. this is just a simple sentence which i believe those who has the lowest IQ cn even understand this.

p/s : exam mode. unstable emotion. stress sometimes. partial give up . but i believe Allah will never burden us with things we can't bear. tawakal after usaha je nur zahidah oi oii. :)

when this fingers dont know what to write. hmm

2010-11-06T03:42:00.000+08:00

i hate when i have to cry in silent. no one realised it . and yet, i have to pretend that i'm okay.

2010-10-31T15:36:00.000+08:00

taken from google.:)

made by me. just take this meaningful sentence and edit it to be in a picture. asalnye kecik je. but then i make it large dalam blogspot..

ni la die keje budak malas belajar. orang lain belajar die buang masa. adoii. (T.T)

bye.!

2010-10-29T08:19:00.000+08:00

I DESERVE SOME RESPECT

THANK YOU

masalah dan cara mengatasi.

2010-10-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

first :
kad matrik hilang plus final lagi seminggu. combination yang menakutkan. takot tak sempat jumpa kad matrik before final, habislaahh (T.T). tak masuk exam karang. huhu.
ways to overcome :
got two options. first, wait for a week kalau kalau ada orang letak dekat lost and found. second, pay RM30 to make a new one. i choose second one. why? because im afraid nobody send it back to bhgian keselamatan. so sad. i had to give up RM30 just for my sillyness. (T.T)

second :
baksis and JPA. which is important. there is clash on time we suppose to be at both place. rasa macam nak kerat badan jadi dua bahagian. hm. kalau tak pergi jpa, susahlah kalau tak reti nk isi borang sume nanti. kalau tak pergi baksis, kena potong markah sebab ada penilaian markah.
ways to overcome :
pergi baksis dulu, kemudian mintak excuse untuk pergi jpa. huhu! entah die bagi ke tak ni. kalau tak bagi, tetap nk pergi jugak. penting koooottt. DUIT mana boleh buat main. hahah.
status : wait for tomoro. lets see how is it gone to be

third :
final. baru dapt tahu sume topik masuk dalam subjek tamadun islam dan asia. adooooi. sabar ajelah.
ways to overcome :
apa lagi boleh buat? baca aje lah. hm. hate this.

fourth :
miss haziq.(T.T). rindu nak gigit die kuat2 dan buat dia menangis. lepastu buat muka tak boleh blah konon konon merajuk. heheh. ajuk sikit dah baik. hehe. alaaa rindu.
ways to overcome :
esok nak jumpa bole? :D

fifth :
final dah dekat. subject tak study. banyak main main.
ways to overcome :
tunggu mood datang entah bila tah. janagn sehari before first paper dahla. huhu.*speechless*

sixth :
rabu lepas dapat interview kepimpinan mtm kolej. and then, maybe this disember kena pergi kem kepimpinan kalau selected. taknak pergi, nak cutiiii(-.-). kacau je. takboleh dating dah. hahah. tak berminat lah nk jadi mtm ni. macam tak layak je, dahlah time management sucks!
ways to overcome:
pray hard so that tak perlu pergi kem tuh. sebab nanti boleh la spend time dengan orang tersayang. yaaayy! with FAMILY okaay. :p

seven :
kursus semester two. got different opinion from my PA. dia kata amik course A instead of B. but i think better take B than A. hmm.
ways to overcome :
okay, i accept the advices. but now, i shall stay with my decision first sebab coursemate sume sama. nanti tak ada geng pulakk. nanti tak selesa i will gugur dan daftar balik on early week of semester two.

eight :
seriously certainly and i am totally i missin you. :'(
ways to overcome :
do i need to think about that also? heh. sabar.

every difficulties has a solution. yes, zahidah is so grateful with all the obstacles. because i think life without problems is like a fluorescent lamp without a starter. golaapp jo nanti. hahah.

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final come AGAIN.

2010-10-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

salam.
baru dapat online because some problem with internet connection here. dahla lama tak balik rumah. hm. sedih.
baksis is over. yay! happy sangat. sebab tak payah lah nak ade class yang membosankan. heh. but aktivity kemuncak, kluster kampung memang menarik. penat badan, lenguh:(. but it was my first experience buat kerja amal macam ni. kemas kawasan rumah. korek longkang yang bau nye tersangatlah wangi sampai macam nak termuntah. T.T jadi moral of the story, silalah jaga kawasan perumahan anda. bukan dalam tapi luar pon sama! huhuu. not only that, dapat pulak jumpa mr shieldtox yang tumbuk2 nyamuk dengan tangan badan tough nak gila tuh. with my own eyes. pergh.! i dont want to say much more about him. tersangatlah.. tersangatlah.. tersangattttttlah...... no comment. yang tu pun ada moral of the story jugak. hahah. kalau nak badan lawa tu agak agak lah kan. nanti nak cari isteri susah. sebab 'perfect' sanngat. scary pulak kami the girls tengok. tp i believe ada jugak yang suka badan mcm tu kan. but definitely not me.:)

final exams. hm. tekanan. stress. its my first time in upm. takboleh nak predict sangat. sebab lain lecturer, lain pulak cara marking, soalan, topic pun. hm. layan je la. TENSION.:( benci betul perasaan nak final. dahlah tension tak study lagi, mood study entah ke mana(T,T) lepastu bergelumang dengan orang orang 4 rata lagi. hm. memanglah wajib tension kan. argh. im crying silently during the day. pretend that im okay with all. hm. crying inside my blanket at night, sebab takuutt sangat. seriously(-_-). thanks to my friend, aqasha bukan nama sebenar for comforting me. huhuu at some extent, i felt like, 'okay im dead this time, i can't do this!. i can't do thiss!! '. but someone knock my head told me that Allah doesn't burden us with things that we can't bear. totally, it makes me feel better. thanks to him. i know Allah s.w.t always with me. He will help me. what i need to do is USAHA. jangan malas. jangan malas. and confident! PRAY. insyaAllah, i will get high pointer. AMINN.

ini lagi satu perkara. fasa percintaan. hahah. aku tak termasuk sebab aku tak terlibat ! ;p memang common sangatlah kan asal masuk tempat baru, mesti lah hormone sayang menyayng pastu nak try, tackle coursemate sume tu kan. masalahnye adik adik, kita baru first sem. i repeat FIRST SEMESTER. relax boleh tak? kau banyak masa lagi. sekarang kau cool aje okay? tak lari gunung dikejar dik oi. hm. mcm joyah pulak dah. janganlah buat benda memalukan. nanti aku simpati dekat kau. jadi moral of the story, for boys, relax eh? jangan nampak sangat kau tu tak gentlemen gelabah geli je nanti. nak kate culture shock tak pulak. hm. andd for girls, kite kadang kena pandai reject. sebab baru kenal mana boleh nak couple terus. let him usaha banyak kali. alahaaii, aku rasa macam ade kat sekolah lah. childish. things like this happen because we set our mind 'okay aku masuk uni, aku nak cari bakal isteri/suami'' dan itulah puncanye kita menjadi gelabah nk couple bagai tak tentu pasal. malunye!.touch wood for me. hmm.

too much words in this entry. sebab dah lama kot tak online nak bukak blogspot semua. aih. jadi best sangat dapat on9. lepastu i felt relieved sebab dapat type new entry. baru lah rasa nak study after this! yay! i miss home. dah lamaaa tak balik. insyaAllah this weekand balik. horeeyy. wish me all the best for my final. im very terrified(T.T). but i know, i HAVE to get through this. and everyone did.

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aidilfitri 2010

2010-09-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

although everyone started to say goodbye to their hometown, i still want to wish selamat hari raya aidilfitri. maaf zahir dan batin. :) lambat update because there is lots of things happen in this whole week. sangat bersyukur kepada Allah for all the great moments i had along this week. alhamdulillah. terima kasih Allah. :)

tak boleh nak describe dah sebab banyak sangat sangat sangat benda menarik berlaku minggu ni. aihh. alaa! nak cuti lagi! nak cuti lagi urgh. ni lah kalau dah best sangat cuti, nak kembali mood study, memang susah kan. homework pun nak buat malam ni(sabtu). memang tah pape lah kan. aih. dan mula lah mood swing taknak balik college. huhu.

raya mood with beloved family ! <3

haziqq. ish budak nih. tahu tak kau ni sangat comel dan gemok? tahu tak maksu nak gigit selalu? paha tu. apehal gebu sangat? aaarrr. rindu dah!

ignore my face (T.T). tengok lebai haziq! he looked at the camera. aww! :)

behind the scene. seeeeee, he's hard to focus on camera. grrr. seb baik comel!

pipi tuh tak payah lembik sangat eh. nak gigitttttttttt !! heh. the two pretty girl in blue is my niece. wawa and ieya.

abah's side. pakchu's was not here. i love raya cause it is the time we unite together and see changes in each other. and for me.im getting taller. kot. heh perasan. (T.T)

some of my cousins and niece. macam tersepit kan duduk kat tengah. tulah nak buat macam mana. sexy butt kan. hahahh :p

see, im tall. isnt it?:p okay kena tipu. thats because im wearing high heels. :) oh btw, kakcik, amik kau punye beg. TQ. hehe

comel kan budak budak atas nih? especially yg kanannnnnnn sekali. kan! :p they were enjoying having cocktail. and for me, fresh orange is enough. konon diet taknak makan manis manis. heeeeee.-.-

another classic picture. at one of my nenek sedara's house. location : kampung ismail.

tangga lagi. but not at the same house. at rumah.. erm. rumahhhh.. tok ngah eh? heh! lupaa.. :D

mak's side. location: shah alam. tahun ni ramai pulak tema orange. heh. ade yang tempah baju tak dapat before raya. jadi dah lari tema. and for meee, sepatut pakai baju lain, tapi tiba tiba baju tu missing in action. so pakai la baju purple nih. hehe. takpe, masih meriah. :) macam nak pecah la rumah atok. dengan suara yang bingit dan bising dan kecoh habis. that is the magic of raya. everyone unite and we talked about everything.

some of the cousins.tak termasuk budak comel tuh. grr. hehe.

nek tam's. :) makan nasi dan ikan! memang favourite. heheh. ade mihun sup and etc etc tapi tak makan sebab tak larat dah. oh haaa, here is where something scary happend to me. dekat porch ni lah ade serangga nak berjinak jinak atas kaki saya. tahu lah kaki saya comel, tak perlulah kan. huhu. i thought it was semut merah yang besar tuh. sekali kebas kebas kain keluar anak lipan. sialan! terkejut dan sangat gelii. huhu. jangan tanya macam mana lipan boleh pilih saya. tanya dia. eh kejap! dia dah RIP sebab anak buah terpijak dia after dia jatuh from my leg. uhhh~

nek mok's house. makan nasi lagi. tapi sedap gila makanan sebab memang ala kampung habis dan sangat pedas! boleh melecur bibir. hahah.;p tak banjir tapi trauma takut ape ape naik atas kaki (T.T)

nek cik's. kat serting eh? time ni dah malam, tapi pergi jugak. sebab besok masing masing balik kampung kan. gamba atas menunjukkan betapa amaze nye cucu cucu haji abdul latif tengok meriam buluh (takde ayat mercun depannye). :p raya this year is different because i had a new experience of watching people playing with meriam buluh. don't ask me how it works but all i know is it has something to do with karbaid, water, gas, api. pooom! meletup. heh

random. sharing is caring. malas nak amik makanan sorang satu amik banyak banyak share untuk tiga orang. heh. time ni selekeh gilaa. macam nak mandi laut je rasa. hahah

before balik. cousins. malam malam pun jadi amik gamba. time ni if im not mistaken dah 11pm dah. huhu. dengan takde line lagi. memang takleh cakap apa lah. bergamba je jalan terbaik. hahah:p

entah sape tah budak depan nih. excited terlebih. tension sebab line tak ada kot. senyum pun over. ahah -.-

atau suka sebab dah nak balik kot. rindu dengan katil. heh

merindui ramadhan dan syukur sangat dapat beraya tahun nih. alhamdulilah. hopefully dapat beraya lagi tahun depan. insyaALLAH. now, dah balik upm. back to basic. study study study. test two is coming and final on november. YaAllah.. takut gila.huhu. please remind me kalau kalau terleka. heh.

THANX TO ABAH FOR ALL THE PICTURES. :))
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2010-09-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

i am sorry

cornflakes madu made by ME ! :D

2010-09-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

selamat hari isnin ! hehe. as what i said in my last post entry kan. nak buat something big for myself kan kann. akhirnye berjaya! yes! hahah. macam besar sgt je mission tu, padahal just nak buat kuih je. (^^''). so harini, 6 september, nur zahidah telah berjaya membuat sejenis kuih utk raya nanti. ceh! miahahah.

kalau makcik makcik profesional baker tuh tahu ape yang aku goreng and bake, mesti diaorang gelak. sebab kuih yang ''alaaahaaaiii, tak raya pon boleh buat'' pun nak riak camni. eheh. well, first time kan makcik. makcik dulu first first time buat kuih pun mesti macam saye jugak kannnn.. hm! :)

it is not even my first time sgt pun bake bake ni. dulu ade je. tapi jadi tukang tolong je. ngeeee~ :D but now, bukan setakat leader buat kuih tapi assistant one, assistant two sumelah! huhu. yer, memang buat sorang je tau. baru challenging. hahah.tapi ada lah long distance assistant. hehe. terima kasih yer kakngah. how am i suppose to know kan 1/8 cawan is equivalent to 2 tablespoon. huhu. seb baik buat kuih light light je. hehe.

kuih cornflakes madu

time ni belum masuk dalam papercup and bake dalam oven lagi. taktau la nak paggil ni kuih ke biskut ke. sebab bile cakap biskut macam tak sesuai, bila cakap kuih macam tak kena. habis? nak panggil cereal madu? buruknyee nama. tapi dalam internet, mostly panggil kuih la. okay whatever. :)

nampak tak tepung dah naik? tak tak. tipu je. heh. sebenarnye macam taktau apesal nak kena masuk dalam oven. but then, based on my observation:P, rasa nya sebab nak bagi lebih crunch and cornflakes tu stay still. p.s: time nak masukkan cornflakes dalam papercup tuh leceh. melekit-lekit tangan. (-.-')

okay dah siap! selekeh kan.(T.T). leceh nak sumbat dalam papercup. tempek je terus. hahah. cerry tu pun sama. tulah size terkecil boleh dipotong. hee. alaaa last last masuk jugak mulut kan. :)

from above. nampak tak ade yang macam hangus tuh? tengok dari luar oven macam okay je, takde yang hangus, so rasa macam nothing changed, so bake lah sekali lagi few minutes. bila keluarkan, Ya Allah!! tergelak sorang sorang. hahah. tak tahu camne rasanya. tak bau tengik tapi bau sedap. nyum3. tak sabar nak bukak puasa. heee.

sesiapa nak order boleh lah order sekarang sementara stok masih ade. boleh hubungi di talian 011234... oke stop! stop! zahidah, jangan berangan. ngee!

pemimbing terbaik. kakla searched for me. afyqa ishaari, can you see that? betul aku tak tipu. aku remind kan diri sendiri. JANGAN RASA. heheh.
p.s : jangan sesekali mempertikaikan tulisan aku. huhu. (T.T)

so in the nutshell, puasa aku masih valid! hahah. till here. bye bye! :))

simple thought

2010-09-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

are you willling to hear all her plague?

are you going to please her whenever she needs your help?

would you change something for her?

or you just ignore all the crap things she said?

would you prove something and make a suprise for her?

or you just want to have fun with your friends?

how sure you are she is the one?

or desperate is what you have now?

so,

before doing something,

before make any decisions,

before anything happen,

before you hurt her,

and before she hates you,

it is important for you,

to analyse all the consequenses that would happen,

to learn by youself,

are you good enough,

for someone that you call a lover.

you don't want to be the person that she hates the most.

don't you?.

p.s : am planning to do something big for myself. wink wink~ wish me all the best! hahah

attitude

2010-09-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

stay strong. concentrate in whatever you do. this is not the perfect time, as what is dreamed by others. believe me, they were wrong. this is the time for you to prove what has not been proved. future. is not clear yet. once it's clear, then it is the time. patience. failure does not mean you are totally a loser. it teaches you how to avoid things that you shouldn't do. it tells you how to be better, for the next day. acceptance. each person has different background. no need to differentiate all of them. all are the same. whom travel life in unique road unlike you. positive. important attitude you should have. keep in your heart. believe in whatever you do. pray for the impossible. secret. let it be unseen. no point to reveal it anyway. keep as low as you can. be like an ordinary person who can not live without his God.

sarcasm

2010-08-28T14:46:00.000+08:00

I HEART BTK 3102 VERY MUCH! IT MAKES MY LIFE

EASIER. I PROMISE TO MYSELF, I WILL GET AN 'A' IN BTK

3102 FOR MY FINAL EXAM. BTK 3102 OR BIOPHYSICAL

CHEMISTRY IS A SUBJECT THAT MAKES ME HAPPY WHEN

THE DAY COMES. HENCE, ONE DAY, I WILL MARRY BTK

3102 TO BE PART OF MY LIFE. NOT ONLY THAT, I WILL

ACCEPT ALL THE FAMILY MEMBERS OF BTK 3102 AS PART

OF MY LIFE, TOO. I PROMISE !.

YES I CAN!

positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible,
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UPM

2010-08-28T14:31:00.000+08:00

whhooooaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! lama gila tak update blog. haaaaachhoom! aah~ berhabuk dah blog ni. hehe. ni sume sbb malas punye pasal. konon budget busy macam prime minister lah, padahal kemalasan dan kepayahan nak online yg menyebabkan aku tak update. kadang rasa macam nak bubarkan je blog ni. tapiii.. macam sayang je kan. nanti cuti sem tak tau nak buat apa. time time tu lah blog memainkan peranan! ngee.

Wow! cepat betul masa berlalu. now dah 4months + 24 days i've been studying in UPM. macam tak percaye pon ade gak. macam kelakar pon ade jugak! ahahah kenapa? cube kau orang bayangkan. aku ulang alik masuk upm since i was a kid! from year to years. last last siniii jugak aku masuk. to further my study in degree. no comment. im okay with it.:). cuma macam rase takde universiti lain dah kt malaysia ni. upm jugak nk lekat kat aku. grr! tapi takpe.

just sometimes, teringat balik, bile ikut abah mak pergi kerja, selalu duduk dalam office je. abah suruh pg jalan to cafe terdekat ke apa, i dont want to, just because im afraid that i'll lost my way back to his office. padahal, sekarang, senang gila jalannye! alaahaii. sume boleh tembus tembus. bukan tembus banggunan lah! tapi tembus jalan. mahir dah. hehe. only at fakulti sains n fsas lah. yg lain including my faculty tak berapa nak familiar. hehe. tu yang first week bila jalan jalan je mesti ''laaaaaaaaa... jalan ni ke pg cimb.".''laaaa, dekat jugak nak pg cafe.''. dan mulelah aku tersengih keseorangan sbb terigt abah cakap senang je jalan nak pg itu ini. memang senang pon!! at that time, mule la terase menyesal sbb tak explore upm time kecik kecik comel tu. hehehe.(^.^!)

lagi satu. pasal bus. mule masuk upm, kelam kabut naik bus. so, kalau nak pg mana mana nak jugak tggu bus kolej baru naik. kalau tak, tak berani nak naik. sekarang, jalan kaki pon boleh. jalan dah mahir.;D nak naik bus apa pon dah tahu. esp in campus lah. tapi masih confuse sikit. biasalah! dah nama pon junior kan. hohoho. aku suka apa jadi junior. bunyik macam budak budak yang comel yang baru masuk sekolah. kan? muaahahaha!

lagi nak cakap apa? kolej? oh kolej tun dr ismail. bunyik macam bagus dah. tapi.. okelah, baguslah. selesa. itu yang penting. yang lain. uhhrmm. oh. floormate menarik.:D dah, tu je. malas nak cite benda lain. taknak ingat. test 1 pon da lepas. macam mana? uhrrmmmmm... what i can say is that, i believe that hero akan kalah dulu. jadi. faham faham lah. ngeeee:D

oke. till here.

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